Have you ever stared up at the sky and see the white fluffy clouds? It's something we can't touch but see. Something we can't hold but watch go by. It's something you can't keep but admire.
Every day at exactly sunrise, I get up and ready for my day. I teach online so I am busy from 8am till 11am. At evening, I go out to a meadow a few blocks away from my house. Taking my art supplies and laying on the grass. I always carry a hand mirror when I go to the meadow. Sitting at the top, I began to paint what ever comes to view, which is almost always clouds. I place my mirror on the grass facing up into the blue sky.
"Hello love."
I smile and continue painting.
"Hello darling." I reply.
I could hear him chuckle softly.
"Clouds? Again?"
I could feel him smiling behind me. I nod and keep my eyes on the canvas.
"Thanks for leaving the mirror out again, it helps."
"Anything for you, my dear." I smile.
A small breeze suddenly hits, causing the paint to dry just a bit more.
"The breeze helps the paint dry, doesn't it?"
I nod.
"What if I blow on it? Would it help?"
A sudden gust of air behind to blow behind me.
"you are blowing too hard." I laugh softly.
I tie my hair up so it won't get messy again. He continues to blow softly on the paint upon the canvas. I ask him to stop and tell him he'll end up tired from doing so. He just replied that he didn't mind. I roll my eyes playfully and continue painting. The small breeze he was given was helping a lot. The entire evening was peaceful and quite comforting, I loved it, being by his side while I painted whatever came to my view. He was always so supportive and made me feel wonderful. Although it does get lonely when I go home it means I won't be able to see him until the next day. It's like that day after day, I have to wait till the evening to go out to meet with him. He says he enjoys my company and I'm glad he does because I do enjoy his company. I wanted it to last forever just being by his side in the meadow painting whatever came to my view it just seems so magical. Almost like it was a dream that I just didn't wanna wake up from. He was there, I was there the beautiful sky at plain view. I was in love with him. There's no denying it, I was madly in love with him. Looking down at the mirror I see his face in the reflection which caused me to smile. He was gazing up at this guy, he has silverish blonde hair and it looked quite soft I reach out to pick up the mirror and he looks at me through the reflection.
"What's wrong, my love?"
"Nothing, I've just missed you."
He smiled and gave me a light nod. I sigh and look away into the trees at the end of the meadow. I began to cry, it was hard knowing I couldn't touch or hug him nor hold him in my arms, but the only way I could be with him was going to the meadow in the evening waiting until he arrives and then leaving when the sun begins to set. I could hear him sigh behind me.
"I have to go."
That's all I said before I begin to pick up all my stuff. I left the Canvas behind and headed towards home. The whole way home was just me in tears, trying to convince myself that I didn't but I couldn't love him anymore because he could never be by my side nor could I continue doing this. Living my life like I don't need him, when I clearly do. I want to wake up every morning with him by my side not waiting till it's evening to go visit him in the meadows and then leave when the sun begins to set. I don't want that anymore, I want to him with me at all times. I'm probably being awfully selfish but I truly needed him. Finally arriving I shut the door and put my stuff away before going to lay down on my bed. I cried myself to sleep just thinking how much I desired for him to be by my side. That's all I really wanted, him.
I woke up the very next day, doing my chores getting ready for work, teaching, going to the grocery store, coming back home and I prepared my paints in my new canvas to go towards the meadows. Of course I thought that maybe it was a bad idea after just leaving in such a hurry yesterday, I didn't even say goodbye but I wanted to tell him how I felt and that I couldn't continue living like I didn't need him with me always. When I arrived I saw that my canvas was still here and that there was some writing in the middle of the painting of clouds I made yesterday. It read "I'm sorry".
I laid out my mirror on the ground facing up put my canvas out and begin to paint this time I painted the trees at the end of the meadow he sat there for hours and he didn't come. He didn't arrive, I just sat there alone and cry to myself. The sun was beginning to say and that's when I began to cry louder and I had a pain in my chest quite unbearable.
"I'm sorry, my darling." Is all I said.
I laid back in the grass and curled up hugging my knees to my chest and cried. I cried out for him hoping he would come even just to say a few words. I hugged the mirror to my chest.
"I love you."
"I love you too."
I shoot up and gaze into the mirror as it faced the sky. His reflection looked back at me and a bright smile came upon my face.
"i'm sorry about yesterday, I didn't realize I was hurting you. I wanted to say that I'm so very sorry that I didn't realize sooner and I want to make things better, I've been thinking about this for a while now and I wanted to say."
He paused for a very long time and look at me through the mirror, he was confused, he was lost at words.
"I love you and I wanted to say that it's hard living without you by my side always. I just, I don't want to continue living without you by my side and knowing that the only time I can see you is in the evening in the meadows and that you'll be gone when the sunsets and that have to go back home alone to nobody waiting there for me, I want you to be the one waiting for me. I know I sound selfish but that's all I truly want I want you, you by my side always. I want you to hold me, embrace me, love me and to adore me the way I adore you. But I can't even hold you nor embrace you nor can I show you how much I love you."
He was still very quiet and wouldn't say a word. I just stood up, stared into the sky and sighed. I began to pick up my things, I turned around to go pick up the mirror when I felt a pair of arms snake around my waist. I froze and looked down at the mirror. He stood behind me embracing me to him. I dropped everything I was holding and turned around to see him. He was beautiful but most importantly he was there, physically there. I quickly embrace to my body and cry in his arms. He kisses my head and hugs me tight.
"But how?" I ask.
"I asked if I could stay by your side forever."
"Huh? What do you mean?"
He chuckles and stares down into my eyes.
"I come from above, I am simply a cloud and I realized that I don't belong up there when I met you. I realized that I belonged here by your side and that's what I plan on doing."
All I could do was stare up at him amazed and I hugged him tightly. Never wanting to let him go.
