𝐖𝐀𝐍𝐓 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊 | 𝐃𝐉𝐒

[TWO]

WANT YOU BACK.

[madison hills]

the nurse stayed in silence, which freaked me out even more. my heart was beating faster every second.

"mr. seavey is alive." she said and we all sighed in relief. "but he's in a coma, we don't know how long it will last and if he'll ever come back from it." she added.

if he'll ever come back from it.

so it still wasn't sure, maybe he wouldn't come back. maybe he'll...die.

"visit hours starts now, one by one, please. don't touch anything or do anything that could hurt him. and if there's anything, just click on the button near his bed." the nurse said before walking away.

we all looked at each other and i sighed. jack stared at me and mouthed 'go'.

i got up from my chair and walk towards the door. i put my hand on the doorknob and hesitated before turning it.

"you can do this, mad." corbyn said, smiling sadly. i nodded to him and gave him a weak smile.

i turned the doorknob and opened the door. i closed the door behind me and walked in the room slowly.

i stopped when i was in front of his bed. i kneeled down and tears started to roll down my cheeks.

"daniel." i sobbed as i held his hand. "daniel, don't leave me, please."

i stared at his lifeless body. this was too much for me. it hurt too much. it hurt too much to see him like that, like he wasn't here anymore.

"okay dani, i don't know if you can hear me but anyway." i said as i wiped away my tears with my sleeves. "every morning, i wake up to only see your beautiful face. every night, i go to sleep so happy because i know that i'll see your face the day after. every day, i find my purpose to be on this earth. and that purpose is you, dani. it's you. you're the best thing that has ever happened in my life. you're the inspiration of so many people, they all need you, dani. you can't go now, we both know it. it's not your time, dani. you have to stay, for me, the boys, your family, your fans. i need you, daniboy. i regret everything i told you before all of this i love you and i want to see you again. i love you a lot, i love you so so much, you don't even know...please come back." i cried.

i didn't had any reaction coming from him, obviously. it was like everything i said didn't mean anything. he couldn't even hear me.

"dani, come back please. i need you so much."

i got up and kissed his lips, but i didn't get any kiss back like normal. it was nothing, just a peck. and he was so cold, so cold. like he didn't even had life inside of him anymore.

i walked away and got out of the room. zach walked right after me. tears were still streaming down my face when i stood against the wall.

"mad..." jack trailed off, before taking me into a hug. i cried on his shoulder, letting all of my tears i was holding in, fall.
"why did it had to happen, jack? i don't understand...why him?" i asked.
"i don't know, mad, i don't know." jack said.

i noticed that he also had tears in his eyes right now. even corbyn had tears, but zach was the worst. he came out of the room, crying a river.

"what did you do to him?" he asked, walking towards me. i stared at him, confused. "you're the reason of this. you hurt him and now...and now he's dead!" zach cried.
"don't say that, zach. we don't know what will happen to dani yet. and madison has nothing to do with what's happening." corbyn said and zach shook his head angrily.

"no! if you hadn't broken up with him, none of this would have happened." zach said.
"how do you even know about the break up?" i asked. i didn't recall telling anyone...except for jack in the car.

"i'm sorry." jack bit his bottom lip.
"you were to not say anything about it!" i said as i got away from his grip.

"no, thanks for telling us, jack. now we know who's the reason of all of this. it's you, madison! you killed him!" zach spat and i shook my head.
"it isn't my fault. i..didn't kill him." i said, tears streaming down my face even more.

"you put him in a coma! you almost killed him!" zach shouted and i now i completely burst into tears, niagara falls streaming down my face.
"i didn't kill him, zach!" i cried.
"yes you did! you killed daniel!" he yelled, pinning me on the wall.

"zach, calm down." corbyn said, trying to get him off me.
"she killed him, corbs. she killed him!" zach said, tears now rolling on his rosy cheeks.
"zach, daniel is not dead. he'll come back." corbyn answered as he pushed the young boy away from me.

"i'm sorry. i'm so sorry." i sobbed. "i didn't want to this to happen. i didn't want any of this to happen." i said as i sat down against the wall.
"you aren't the cause of this, mad. it's not your fault." jack said as he kneeled down, next to me.

"zach is right." i said as i looked at the sixteen year old boy, sobbing on corbyn's shoulder. "i put daniel in a coma, i'm the reason we're all here, and not celebrating his birthday. i don't deserve daniel, i don't deserve any of you boys, i don't deserve any of this. i don't even deserve to live. i'm a horrible person." i said, starting to remove the necklace daniel had offered me before going to american idol.

i didn't deserve any of what i had right now. so many people will kill to be in my position and i was there, but always doing the wrong thing. i didn't deserve to do all these amazing things with these amazing boys. i didn't deserve the life i lived.

"what do you mean by 'don't deserve to live'?" corbyn asked me and i shook my head.
"does it really matter?" i asked before handing the necklace to jack. "give this to daniel, when he'll wake up. tell him i love him a lot and i'm sorry for being a horrible friend." i said.

before he could say anything i ran to the staircase and walked down the stairs quickly. i decided to walk home, even though it was heavily raining. i couldn't care less about the weather right now.

all i cared about was that it was over for me ;
i didn't deserve this life.

1200 words - @-goldenwdw

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i'm sorry to leave you all
on this cliffhanger haha
!!!
for once, i have nothing to say
except from the fact that this chapter
almost mad me cry while writing it.

aghhh im emo rn
i'm listening to ariana grande and one direction's sad songs
and it's not helping at all haha

well, well, loves
goodbyeeee💗

—bel