𝐖𝐀𝐍𝐓 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊 | 𝐃𝐉𝐒

[THREE]

WANT YOU BACK.

[cassandra caulfield]

i parked my car in front of the boys house. people were still getting out. it was honestly really sad. madison had told me all about this party, about how much it was going to be fun and amazing. and now, the day of the party, her boyfriend, the birthday boy, was in a freaking hospital.

i sighed and rang the doorbell. surprisingly, a cake faced girl opened the door. she stared at me up and down, disgust on her face.

"hi cassandra." she smiled.
"hi, do we know each other?" i asked, surprised that she knew my name.

"yes, i'm meghan. you know, the famous, supermodel, who dated  daniel seavey, meghan collins."she laughed and i showed her a fake smile.
"i just hadn't really recognized you with...all that makeup. but you look really pretty." i complimented her and she chuckled.

"oh thanks, i got that a lot today." she said.
"so, i've been told jonah is here. could i talk to him?" i cleared my throat.
"yes, jonah has been in his room acting all weird. i thinks it because of the accident." she answered and i nodded.

"can i get in?" i asked, it was raining outside and i was getting wet.
"oh sorry hon, get in!"

she let me in. and i walked up the stairs. i walked towards jonah's room and i knocked on his door. i knocked again but still no answer. the door was already half open, so i looked in it and saw that he was sitting on his bed.

i decided to get in. i wasn't just going to wait outside. i walked in the room and he looked up to me, his eyes were red and puffy. it broke my heart seeing him like that.

i sat next to him on the bed and didn't say anything. i could just hear him sniffing every now and then.

"jo, why aren't you at the hospital with the boys?" i asked him softly.
"i was getting everyone out." was his only answer.
"well everyone's gone now, you could go see daniel." i said.
"and literally see him on his death bed? no thanks." he exclaimed as he got up.

i understood that this was the problem. seeing, daniel there, in pain.

"he's only in a coma, there's chances he might come back." i said and jonah shook his head.
"whether if he ever comes back or not, it still won't be the same. right now, we're on a break from touring. but in one week, we're going on tour again. we had this whole tour planned and we'll have to push it to another time. the fans are going to be disappointed." jonah said.

"we'll figure out something for the tour, jo. right now, you should be at that hospital." i answered.
"look, if he doesn't make it, i don't want my last  memory of him to be him, on a hospital bed with wires attached to him everywhere. i don't want my last memory to be him, in between life or death. i want my last memory to be daniel well and alive." he said and i noticed the tears in his eyes now.

god, i could  see him like that. it hurts way too much. seeing him in so much pain, just make my body hurts.

"listen jo, last year, i learnt that my mom had cancer. and i was like you, i didn't want to go back to canada to see her in pain. i didn't want to say goodbye to her like that. i always thought she would die old, in a rocking chair, with my future husband and my kids around her. i didn't expect it to be my 18 years old self, with my 15 soon-to-be 16, years old sister, around a hospital bed. my sister told me that we had to go canada to at least say goodbye to her in a proper way. but who honestly wants to see her mother dying? i didn't want to go but my sister forced me. when we were in canada, i never went to that hospital. i was always avoiding it. i always had a rendez-vous or other stuff to do. i was never there for my mother. she used to ask my little sister : 'where is your big sister?' because  i was never there, jo. never." i told jonah, tears now streaming down my face at the memory.

"cass, you don't have to do this." he said as he took my hand. i shook my head.

"no, i need to tell you this. my mother died last december. christmas day i received a call, saying that she was gone. i had never cried that much, jonah. and every time, until now i regret it. i regret not going the see her. i regret not being there for her when she was still there. during all my life, she had been there for me and i didn't even make the effort to see her fighting against that sick disease. jonah, if i had one last time to see my mother, dead or alive, coma or not, trust me, i would. i would do anything in my will to see her. even if it meant to fly to canada right now and finish all the money i saved. jo, i just don't want you to lose your chance like i did. you have the chance to be here for daniel, take it." i said.

i finished talking with a smile and jonah smiled back.

"thank you cass. this means a lot." jonah said and i shrugged my shoulders.
"oh, it's nothing. that's what you do for a friend, right?" i smiled, starting to walk away.

"yeah about that. cassandra, i know it's going to be weird and maybe mess up our friendship forever but... i like you a lot. like like-like you." he said and my moth formed an "O" shaped.
"jon—"i started off but he interrupted me.
"no, cass. i know...you don't feel the same but i just think you should know, because i—"

but this time i was the one who interrupted him. i put my lips on his and pulled away as soon as i did.

"i like-like you a lot too." i chuckled and he smiled before leaning in once again.

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