𝐖𝐀𝐍𝐓 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊 | 𝐃𝐉𝐒

[EIGHT]

WANT YOU BACK

"what do you mean you think he knows?" i asked, my heart beating faster every second.

"we were playing never have i ever and zach asked if we had ever slept with our friend's girlfriend and i said that i have. so they all pressured me to say who it was and i didn't want to so they asked me when it was and i told them it was during a halloween party last year. and suddenly daniel just said he didn't want to play anymore and he left. since then, he's in his room and i think he knows because i was the one who took you home that day and i think he remembers." jack explained.

"jack, do you realize how screwed we are right now? if daniel knows, it's over!" i answered. "maybe he doesn't even knows, maybe your just imagining stuff, okay? let's not start panicking too much for now and wait." i said, calming down.

"okay." jack replied. "i've been in the bathroom for wait too long now, the boys are going to think there's something wrong. so i need to go, bye!" jack said.

he hung up and i bit my lip. tom taped on my shoulder, making me jump back. i forgot he was even there! he looked at me worryingly, obviously confused about what was going on right now.

"everything okay?" he asked me and i hesitated before shaking my head. "what's up?" he asked, turning fully to me and i sighed deeply, closing my eyes.

"i did something wrong. a few months ago. and it's coming back to me."

"how bad was it?" tom asked me and i shook my head.

"bad. like really, really, bad. an awful thing. a really dumb mistake that i tried to ignore and ignore, and forget but it's coming back now." i answered.

"okay, well tell me what i was. i bet it's not that bad." he chuckled, holding my hands.

i didn't know how to tell him. i didn't know if i should tell him. if we were going to be together, i didn't want him to know about it. he wouldn't trust me anymore. plus, it was something that i wanted to forget for so long and i thought it was doing good. but out of nowhere, it was back. and i was scared, scared of what was going to happen next. if daniel knew, this wasn't going to go well for me.

"i...cheated on my boyfriend." i hesitated on saying. tom stared at me for a while.

"you what?" he finally choked out and my cheeks turned red.

"i was drunk. we were at a party. he left with his friends and i didn't think about anything. i was so drunk. and i got confused and all mixed up. and i cheated on him with his bandmate, his best friend, jack." i told him, my cheeks burning up.

"woah...that's messed up." tom said, shocked.

"i know that. and it's one of the biggest mistake i've ever made. i legit hate myself for it. and now, daniel might know and i'm quite over." i bit my bottom lip.

"so that's not the reason why you guys broke up?" he asked me and i shook my head. "why did you guys break up then?" he asked once again.

"i had planned this amazing birthday party for him. and the day of his birthday. we had a fight. i was jealous. he was hanging out behind my back with his ex-girlfriend. and i was mad. and hurt. because i couldn't understand why he would do that when he knows exactly how much of a bitch his ex was and still is. so then, he told me that if i couldn't trust him, we shouldn't be in a relationship. so i stormed out of the house, jack took me home. and that was the legit the biggest mistake in my life. because that was the night he almost died. and if he had died, i would have never forgotten myself." i answered, feeling the tears well up my eyes.