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‼️‼️‼️CAUTION THERE IS TRIGGERING THINGS AHEAD! THIS STORY INCLUDES MENTION OF SELF-HARM, SUICIDE, ANOREXIA AND BULIMIA.‼️‼️‼️

3rd PERSON POV

Richie had been struggling with severe depression since freshman year. He started to ditch his Hawaiian shirts and tees for baggy sweaters to cover his cuts, scars, burns and bruises. His arms were cut and there were lots of scars, small and big; some were from cutting others from burns. His thighs had started to slowly gain the scars as well. It got worse by the day. He developed a combo of bulimia and anorexia in the summer before Sophomore year. He was now a Junior. He would eat enough to stay alive but he would rather just be dead. Recently his eating had gotten so bad he had fainted twice, thank god nobody had been around. He stayed alive for one reason and that reason was starting to fade away. Edward (Eddie) Kaspbrak. He was his reason to live and recently Eddie seemed to only care about was Bill. His best friend, the love of his life slowly started to fade away, leaving him alone in the darkness.

RICHIES POV

     I woke up in a pool of my own tears from last night. Most of the night was a big blurry mess and it was literally blurry. I couldn't see from how much and how hard I cried. Last night Eddie and I were supposed to hang out but we got in a fight and I'm pretty he doesn't even want be friends with me anymore.

Flashback

I picked up my phone to call Eddie.
Richie: Hey Eds when will you be over
Eddie: Umm sorry to bail last second but I'm hanging out with Bill tonight.
Richie: *mumbles* Fuck me like always
Eddie: Excuse me?
Richie: Nothing
Eddie: What the fuck is wrong with you Richie. I'm allowed to hang out with other people besides you.
Richie: I'm not saying you can't it's just that you're MY best friend and you never hang out with me anymore.
Eddie: I don't belong to you Richard so please fuck off
Richie: Eds that's not what I meant -
Eddie: Don't call me that. Don't call me anything. *sigh* Just don't call me at all.

The phone went silent and there was a beep implying Eddie had ended the call and that's when Richie noticed how hard he was crying.

End Flashback

      I got up reluctantly so I could get dressed and head to school. I stopped driving my car because when I walked I would lose weight but today I could barley stand because of Eddies rejection running through my head on repeat. I walked in to the bathroom so I could brush my teeth and take a shower. I took a glance in the mirror and I could my rib cage starting to look prominent but I still felt fat. I washed off all of the tears and sweat, I got out to put on my favorite hoodie thinking it might make me feel better.