Abusive (Jikook) (Vkook) (Vhope)

Jikook

Jimin slapped the bottle out of Jungkook's hold.
"What the fuck are you doing?" Jimin slapped Jungkook across his face.
"Jimin I..." Jungkook tried but Jimin slapped him again and pulled him by the collar.

"What do you want? You've abused me to your heart's content! Now why are you doing this?" Jimin screamed at Jungkook as he pulled and pushed him by the collar.
"You think this is the way? To kill yourself when you can't handle me in the arms of another man? What about me? Did you think about me?" Jimin screamed louder and pushed Jungkook hard making him fall on the bed. Jimin sat down onto the floor and balled his eyes out.

"Why, Jungkook? Why?" Jimin cried hard, he was distraught. He just couldn't bear the pain.
Jungkook's tears fell onto the mattress as he look down and breathed out. His hands were shaking and his breathing was pacing.
"I wasn't going to kill myself.." Jungkook managed to say.
Jimin looked up at him, defeated.

"I just wanted to sleep. I was tired. I just want to sleep.." Jungkook said timidly as his tears fell down.
"Sleep? " Jimin got up and pulled Jungkook's collar.
"You think I'm an idiot?" Jimin kissed him hard and straddled him.
"Jiminie... You are so beautiful.. I'll never be able to.. to make it right. It is right for you to leave me.." Jungkook stroked Jimin's cheek.

"So this is it? You're just going to give up? This is how strong your fucking love for me is?" Jimin pulled him harder and kissed him again. Jungkook couldn't even kiss him back properly. He knew it was best for Jimin to move on.
"I'm not giving up. I'm letting you go, baby. You deserve all the happiness in this world, Jimin. You're so perfect, in every way that I can imagine. I love you so much, that I want you to be happy with him. The pain will never fade for me but me hurting slowly is better than you suffering with me.. you can't trust me. I know it. I wouldn't trust me either." Jungkook was shaking as he spoke. Jimin cupped his face to ease him but it wasn't working this time.

Jungkook shivered uncontrollably.
Jimin's tears knew no bounds, he pulled Jungkook closer, he just wanted to hold him and kiss him.

"I'm just not worthy of this honour.. of being the man you love. I don't deserve your kisses, your smile and your caring ways. I've given you nothing but pain. I've been nothing but abusive." Jungkook held Jimin's waist and planted a soft kiss on his cheek.
"So you should go.." Jungkook's heart paced and every nerve in his body cursed him for saying this. He didn't want Jimin to go!

Jimin lost his cool.
"Just fucking stop!" Jimin sobbed and shook his shoulders.
"Jungkook, I love you more than anything in this world! I stayed! Stayed for so long! Took all that abuse because I loved you! But I'm hurt! You need to woo me. Show me that you love me! If you truly loved me, then you wouldn't let me go! You're full of bullshit!" Jimin cried and pushed him again.

"Baby, I do.. but you don't. You shouldn't. I understand.." Jungkook forced a smile.
"Oh how dare you say that? I don't love you?" Jimin was so angry.

" I deserve to see how much you want me! You're not getting off so easily by throwing me out! You're going to work hard and make me believe and make me see! Or are you just looking for reasons to let me go so you could fuck another guy? A better looking guy, perhaps?" Jimin said harshly. Jungkook winced at his tone. It hurt so bad that he closed his eyes.

"Jiminie.. I only want you. I'll do anything and everything to make you see." Jungkook closed his eyes and cried.
"But can you give me another chance.... Without doubting my intentions?" Jungkook looked up at Jimin with pained but hopeful eyes.

"If I do... You'll only try. If I don't agree... You'll let me go then. And you'll move on, you won't hold onto this. And you won't hurt yourself or the man you love again" Jimin cried and rested his forehead on Jungkook's.
Jungkook chuckled softly.
"Love again? Jimin, I promise you this. I'll never force you back if you decide to walk away the second time but I'll leave forever. I won't hurt myself but I will never be with another man. I can't. I'll give my everything to you. You hold the key to my heart, Jimin.." Jungkook placed Jimin's hand on his heart.

Jimin's fingers curled slightly on his chest, he felt his fast beating heart. He shallow breathing.
"You really are sorry, Jungkook? You're not... You're not pretending, are you?" Jimin mumbled softly.
Jungkook let out a sharp breath.
"Baby...This is what I mean. How can I convince you..."

Jimin fell silent and the air in the room felt a lot heavier now. The silence was Jungkook's answer. He couldn't have convinced him. There was nothing he could do.

"Jungkook-ah.." Jimin sobbed softly.
"I know, baby. I know. " Jungkook stroked his cheek and leaned his forehead against his again. Jimin's tears constantly fell onto Jungkook's cheeks.

"Don't cry.. please." Jungkook choked back his overflowing tears.
"My beautiful Jiminie.. You're going to be so happy. You'll marry him, adopt 3 babies and a small dog. And live together with the man you love, Jimin. Not with someone who manipulated you into staying with him..." Jungkook smiled thinking of how happy his love would be.

"But I love you..." Jimin couldn't hold back anymore. He cupped Jungkook's face and pulled him into a hungry kiss.
"But.. You looked so happy with him. You.. The way you closed your eyes when he kissed you and touched you. The way you were..." Jungkook's heart beat grew faster and his tears flowed again.
"No, Jungkook. I want you. " Jimin kissed him again.
"Jimin-ah... I don't want you to regret. I want you but... You're never going to be able to give me your all. " Jungkook tried reasoning with him.

"You're feeling this way because...After all we've been through.... After everything I've put you through." Jungkook corrected himself and sobbed.
"You deserve better. You should go. " Jungkook said timidly. He didn't want to let Jimin go, he was willing to fight all his life for Jimin. He only wanted a chance but did he deserve one? He didn't think so.

"He'll.. keep you h-happy." Jungkook was stammering now. Jimin knew he was feeling too overwhelmed as he felt Jungkook's grip tighten on his waist.
"For fuck's sake! I love you!" Jimin said exhausted now.
"You do..?" Jungkook asked.
"I do.." Jimin cried.
"But why?" Jungkook looked up as if looking at something beautiful for the first time.
"Because.. because I do!" Jimin was tired.
"If you do..." Jungkook mumbled cupping his face.

"Then make love to me, Jimin.." Jungkook looked at him desperately. He needed this. He was begging for it.
Jimin froze at his words.
"You want me to.."
"Yes, Jimin. I do.." Jungkook pulled Jimin closer and waited for him to respond.

Jimin still wasn't sure though. Should he be going through with this? Should he give him another chance for with his heart was begging him for or should he walk away with Yoongi and punish Jungkook?

What should he do, he didn't know.