LOCA QUEEN

Ch.20 Strange Feeling

MARISSA'S POV.

Tomorrow morning Diego, his mom, brothers, and step dad are leaving to Arizona. We haven't spoke at all since our fight. I really can't believe he did that. He just left me. He doesn't want anything to do with me. Except for today. Today he's gonna have to deal with me.

I texted him this morning and told him I want my stuff I kept in his room. Two shirts, a pair of jeans, and my bong. No way in hell I'm gonna leave my shit with him. I'm done with him. If he really doesn't wanna be with me and doesn't mean all the things he told me then I want nothing to do with him.

Once an asshole and a player, ALWAYS an asshole and a player.

I text Diego to let him know I'm on my way to his house so he better have my shit ready. I wonder how it's gonna be. I feel like we fell apart so fast it's like we went back to square one in an instant. It's like ounr relationship never existed. And the things we told each other never came out of our mouths.

When I get to his house I don't see him outside. I go to grab my phone from my pocket but it's not there. I check all my pockets and around the car and it's not there. "Fuck man" I say as I sit there giving up looking for it. I forgot it. I sigh and take off my seat belt.

I go up to the door and knock. Diego answers it. "Oh, hold on, wait right here" he says quietly and awkwardly. I nod and cross my arms. I face outside the street an wait.

"Here" Diego says and I turn around. He hands me my purse with my clothes in it and hands me my bong. "Thanks, take care" I say then begin to walk away. "Marissa" he calls after me but I continue walking. "So you just wanna end it like that?" He asks. I stop and turn around.

"You already ended it, I don't care anymore" I say as I put my shit in the back seat. "Man, why do you have to be such a selfish ass bitch for?!" He yells. I slowly turn around and look at him. "Excuse me? Who the fuck are you to call me a selfish bitch?" I say venomously going up to him.

"Monique's in fucking juvi and all I'm trying to do is see her and be there for her as much as I fucking can!" He tells me. "Then go! I don't care what YOU do! All I care about is Monique not you" I say then begin to walk away. "Good, I never gave two fucks about your ass either" he says strangely in a sad way.

I turn around and look at him."of course you didn't fucking hoe" I say then continue to walk away. "Hoe??!" He says quickly rushing up to me.

"Don't forget I the one that got what I wanted, a fuck" he says coldly then walks away. That one hurt. And made me angry.

It's taking SO much right now for me to not punch him in the face. I shake my head and get in my car. I wonder if he meant all that. He probably did. I sigh and drive home. Part of me still wants him. But all of me knows I have to let him go.

When I get home I see Danny sitting on the porch steps. I scrunch my eyebrows and park in the driveway. "What are you doing here?" I ask him as I get out of the car. "I wanted to know if you know anything else about Monique just in case, I mean I would've texted but I broke my phone" he says in a very gloomy way. I know how much he missed her.

"Oh it's cool but nah, nothing new that I know, I just went to her house to get my stuff I had there" I say as I sit next to him. He nods and looks down at his hands. "Do you know if they're selling their house or something?" I ask him. "Nah they're renting it out to some family members for a year and a half, they put most of their furniture and shit in storage" he tells me. "Damn" I say with a sigh.

"What are you gonna do?" I ask him referring to his and Monique's relationship. He sighs. "I mean a lot of people don't think I could do it but, I'm gonna wait for her, just cause she's locked up doesn't mean I'm just gonna go fuck another female you know? It's just fucked up that I can't actually talk to her about it" he says shaking his head.

"Aww Dan!" I say teasingly as I shove his arm with mine. He just smiles. "But I know, i have no idea what I'm gonna do without her" I say sad. Monique is my best fucking friend. How are we supposed to have zero contact for almost TWO YEARS?

"I feel you, what about you and Diego?" He asks. I told him about Diego around the time we first got together. I huff. "We're done, he made it clear that he doesn't wanna be with me, I should've known he was just gonna be a dick, I'm just, more confused now" I tell him.

"Why though? You shouldn't be confused he don't want you and you don't want him, I mean I've only known him for about a year but he's a fucking dick, cocky mother fucker too he has high standards" he tells me. It's true though. A LOT of girls don't like Diego boyfriend-wise cause he's almost conceited in a way. But I think he's just confident. And I've always liked that in not gonna lie.

Plus he does have high standards. Girls always say he's too good for them or they're surprised he doesn't have a kid yet. But my homegirls always said I was the "perfect" girl for him. All that don't mean shit now.

"Well, I mean, I don't know forsure yet, and it's pretty much IMPOSSIBLE, but, I think, I, I might be pregnant" I tell him quietly biting my lip. I never thought I'd say that right now.