LOCA QUEEN

Ch.22 Baby Steps

MARISSA'S POV.

I haven't been able to sleep all night. How can I when I know I'm pregnant? I don't know if I should be happy or sad. But it isn't even a happy thing right? I can't be having Diego's baby. I just can't. Not while I'm in high school. Not under so many circumstances.

Since the tests said I'm pregnant, I need to go to the doctors. That means I need to tell my mom. I have no idea how she's gonna react. I'm not really scared to tell her I just have no idea what she'll say. I don't want to disappoint her.

I texted Ariana that the tests said I'm pregnant and she just texted back:

"omg!! :D tell mom ASAP!"

I don't know if the smiley face really meant she was, happy or excited?

I go to the kitchen and can smell my moms cooking. "good morning mija, you're up early" she says. "I know I, couldn't sleep, what are you cooking?" I ask her as I pour a glass of orange juice. "eggs and chilaquiles" she tells me as she serves me a plate.

"thanks, where's Saul?"  ask her. I don't want him to hear what I'm about to say. "still sleeping, I'ma go get his lazy ass up" she says as she begins to leave. "wait! I have to tell you something" I tell her. I start getting nervous. "what?" she asks as she scrunches her eyebrows wondering what I'm about to say.

"umm" I start. Do I just say it?? "I, I'm pregnant" I say in a frozen state. "wait what?" she says. "I'm pregnant mom" I tell her looking down at my food. "Oh my god Marissa" she says as she pulls out a chair next to me. "h-how-" she trails off not knowing what to say.

"I took two tests and they both said the same thing, and I can just feel it" I tell her. "but you're on birth control??" she says. "it was before I went on birth control" I tell her. "oh my god" she says as she smiles and covers her mouth.

"so what do you want to do?" she asks me. "I need to go to the doctors" I tell her. "right, right I'll call as soon as I go upstairs" she says nodding. "but do you know like, what you want to do with the baby?" she asks. Those words gave me goosebumps and chills down my spine. She's asking ME what I want to do with the BABY growing in MY stomach.

"I don't know" I say sadly. She nods. "well whatever you choose I'll support you mija I'll be there for you EVERY step of the way" she tells me with a caring smile. I smile and nod. "I'm gonna go call the doctors office and make you an appointment" she says as she stands up. "Okay" I say as I start eating my food.

------NEXT MORNING-----

My mom was able to make me an appointment this morning at 10. I am SO nervous. I've been thinking all night about what I want to do. But I don't think I'm gonna make a decision until I go to the doctors.

I get dressed and ready and go to the living room where my moms waiting for me. "hey mija you ready?" she asks as she stands up. "yeah" I say with a nod. We go outside to her car and drives to the doctors office.

"are you nervous? excited?" my mom asks. "nervous, scared" I tell her. "it'll be okay, not as bad as you probably think" she says. "I was sixteen when I got pregnant with Ariana, if I can do it, I know you can mija" she tells me. "I know" I say with a smile.

I really don't know what I'm gonna do.

We get to the doctors office and I sign myself in. I hate going to the doctors. It's always quiet and you get nervous for no reason.

There's only 3 ladies here. One is here her boyfriend, the second one is pregnant and here by herself, and the last one is pregnant and here with her daughter. My heart is beating so fast and my leg won't stop shaking.