F A N Z O N E D; Lucas Dobre

Twelve.

Anisha.

I was still shock.
I decided to meet up with Marcus, as he doesn't know what was going on. This time, I told him to bring Darius & Cyrus.
We were meeting for lunch.

[At Lunch]

Marcus; So what happened exactly?

Anisha; he fucking fanzoned me.
Can't wait to tell everyone that my childhood best friend that I've waited to meet in forced fanzoned me. What a story.

Darius; fanzoned?

I explained it all to them. Every detail.

Marcus; wow.

Anisha; to think that he would actually be kind, and say Hi you're not allowed inside or be nice and give me small talk. I was wrong. The boy fucking fanzoned me.

Cyrus; Look! It's Lucas.

Anisha; Great. More to the misery. I said to myself.

Darius; *whispers* I heard that.

Anisha; Oh . haha. 😐

Lucas came by.

Lucas; Hey guys! Who's this you're hanging out with.

This was it. I said my full name. Hoping he'd remember me. Hoping he'll say he's sorry.

Anisha; Hi, I'm Anisha Singh. Nice to meet you. I model in your merch and was in your music video already.

That's it! I saw the guilt in his face. The unapologetic look, he stopped. He looked speechlsss. That was my sign of hope. Hoping he'd remember.

Lucas; oh. Ohh. I.. I'm sorry. I didn't know.

Marcus; doesn't she looks familiar? Doesn't her name ring a bell?

Lucas; was she one of the fans at our meet and greet last year? I'm pretty sure there's a fan with that name.

HE DID IT AGAIN.
He fucking fanzoned me. Again. Twice.
For fuck sakes Lucas!

I took a sip of my coke. I rolled my eyes wanting to leave so fucking badly. Just going back home. I wanted to run away.

Darius held my hand, I felt like he could've seen the smoke coming out my ears and the tears building up in my eyes.

Anisha; well guys. It was nice to catch up with y'all. I'll see y'all around.

I hugged each and everyone of them. Expect, Lucas Dobre. I wanted to get my arms around him so bad. But he fucking fanzoned me.

TWICE.

Marcus; I'm sorry.

Anisha; it's okay. (:

Anisha; Bye guys.

I walked away. Anger. Madness. Frustration. Hatred. They all grew inside of me when Fanzoned me. “FUCK!!” I yelled as I sit inside my car.

Tears, flowing out of my eyes. I didn't care who saw me crying. I was hurt. Again. By him. He fanzoned me.

TWICE. T W I C E

My face became red, tears streaming down my cheeks. My phone was ringing, but when I looked at it, in my blury vision, I completely ignored the call from who is was.

Marcus.

It's nice to know that he cares, but his fucking twin doesn't seem to.

At this point, I'm bawling my eyes out. Not because I was only hurt. But because I was angry. Angry at myself again. I knew it wasn't a good idea to meet Marcus.

Angry at myself because I allow him to hurt me again. angry at myself because I showed him how weak I was.

Don't you just hate it when your anger turns into tears.