Happier

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Andy-

We arrived home after filming a few covers. It was already dark out and we were all exhausted. All I wanted to do was check Twitter, maybe send out a tweet, then go to bed. I climbed into my bed, still in Rye's hoodie, as I unlocked my phone. I opened Twitter and went to the notifications.

Tears clouded my vision as I scrolled down, I knew I had to stop scrolling, but my thumb just kept going. My cheeks became wet. I closed Twitter and went to Instagram, going through our stories. Mikey was just filming a harmless video when he caught us in the background. I knew it wasn't his fault, but I couldn't help but feel the anger rise inside me as I couldn't help but feel that he had ruined everything and now everyone would hate me and Rye. He walked through the door and I couldn't help but yell and scream as he looked at me in confusion, but how could he possibly be confused when this was happening.

Rye heard me having a go at Mikey and came rushing into the room. He pushed Mikey out of the door and then came to my side. He guided me back to my bed and sat me down. He kneeled down in front of me.

"Andy, calm down! I saw the video, and it's gonna be ok! We can just tell the fans that we were having a friendly cuddle and Mikey accidentally filmed it, ok?" He said as he grabbed my hands and rubbed my knuckles with the pads of his thumbs.

I began to slow my breathing down as my anger turned into worried and sadness. Worry because I don't want the fans to hate us and I don't want Blair to get mad us, and sadness... Sadness because the truth is Randy isn't even technically a 'thing', and while I'm scared of what the fans think, I want Rye and I to be something more.

"Andy? What's on your mind?" Rye asked, pulling me from my thoughts. I looked from the floor to him. He looked worried, his eyes a darker brown and his lips slightly frowning. He studied my expression as I studied his.

"I... I don't wanna wait anymore. I wanna be yours. I wanna be in your arms everynight and I want to be able to kiss you and cuddle you anytime that I wish. I don't care what Blair says or what the fans think, all that matters is that I have you by my side because I've fallen in love with you and I can't stop it." I rushed out as I watched his expression intently. The entire time I talked his eyes never left mine and his lips curled up to a smile and his fingers wrapped around my hands tighter.

"Andy, I've never wanted anything more than to be able to hold you everynight and tell you how much I love you and for you to be mine. Will you be my boyfriend, Andy?" He asked as he leaned forward a small bit. Ieaned in as well so our forheads were touching and when I spoke our lips brushed up against each other's.

"Yes, I'd love to." I said before capturing his beautiful, plump lips with my own. We pulled away a minute later.

"Now you have someone to apologise to." Rye stated as he stood up and pulled me up with him. I reluctantly followed him to the Jacklyn room. I didn't wanna have to speak to Mikey because I knew I blew up at him when I shouldn't have. I felt bad.

"Mikey? Andy would like to say something." Rye said as he opened the door, still holding my hand in his.

Mikey looked up from his phone awkwardly and looked over at me. I looked to the floor.

"Look, Mikey, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have gotten mad at you, I was just a bit scared. Please forgive me." I said as I looked back at him. He smiled a bit and stood up.

"Yeah mate, of course. I deleted the video and I'm sorry I didn't catch it before I posted it. We're cool though." He said as he gave me bro hug. I sighed in relief.

My best mate was still my best mate even after I had blown up at him, and I now have my other best mate, the one that understands me most, to call my own. I couldn't be happier, given how I'd been feeling for the last month, and all I wanted was for this moment to last forever, Rye's hand clutching onto mine tightly as the boys questioned our entertwined fingers and we happily told them that we were together. The way they cheerfully congratulated us and wished us the best, reassuring us that they wouldn't let it change anything with the band or our friendships. I was happy to be accepted and I was happy to be, well, happy.

"You alright mate?" Brook asked as he waved his hand in front of my face. I blinked my eyes a few times, coming back to reality. My cheeks were burning and that's when I realized that I had the biggest smile on my face.

The boys were all tired, so Rye led me back to his room and laid me down on his bed. He climbed in beside me after removing his shirt and wrapped his arms securely around my waist as he looked into my eyes, the only light visible being the moon streaming through the window. Even with such little light I could see the smirk on his lips and the sparkle of his eyes, the light pink that dusted his cheeks and I could feel his warm breath against my skin as I pressed myself against hin, getting as close to him as possible, closer than ever before.

Somehow being his didn't change anything, but at the same time changed everything. And I liked it. No. I loved it.

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