Beyond Torchwood

I'M NOT DEAD!

Chapter 10

I'M NOT DEAD!

Owen and I walked to my room. I laid on my bed half hanging off of it and Owen sat in a chair. "How old are you," he asked jokingly. "11," I said over enthusiastically. "I thought you where 21," He said. "I thought you were 40," I teased. "That hurts Jodie," he replied. I smirked, "Bang bang." I actually fired a rubber band at him. "Oi," He exclaimed. I giggled. I was exhausted. "You high Jodie," he asked. I burst out laughing. That wasn't even funny. "Dude I was with you this whole time when could I have done drugs," I asked. "When I had my back turned. I coulda sworn I heard you sniffing," he teased. I flung a rubber band but since I was tiered it hit his eye not his nose. He held his eye. "Blimey," he muttered. I rolled off and stood up in front of him. "I am so so sorry," I apologized. He shook his head, "It's fine." He let his hand drop and there was a red mark on his lid. I stood there and took a step forward. He held his hands up and held me back at arms length by my abdomen. "Please just let me see it," I asked. He rolled his eyes. "You're lookin at it," he said. I looked at him and gave him a sarcastic look. He was still holding me back in the same area. "It's fine really," he said standing so he was again taller. I looked up. "Owen I just hit your eye. There's a mark I need to see wether or not-," said and was cut off. His lips collided into mine and I stood a bit shocked. He wrapped his arms around my waist pulling me close and I kissed back my lids closing. I wrapped my arm around his neck. He pulled back. Damn he was a good kisser. I opened my lids and my cheeks went a light shade of pink. "Well," I said my voice a bit higher than usual, "ok then." "I'm sorry," he said. "No actually that- that was- it was actually... amazing," I half stammered half mumbled my brain and mouth not working at the same speed. We were kinda standing there arms still wrapped around each other.

 "Right so that lid," I said changing the topic and our arms dropped. He closed the one eye. "It seems to be infected and red," I said it dead serious but I was messing with him. He raised an eyebrow, "Jodie Holmes, didn't anyone tell you it's not nice to lie?" A smile pulled across my face and I chuckled. "Alright you caught me. It's fading steadily you're fine you big ninny," I said. He chuckled shaking his head. "Get some sleep," He said. I pouted, "Yes father." He walked out and I laid in bed staring at the ceiling. I couldn't help that my thoughts kept drifting back to the kiss. Stop it Jodie! You can't be in love you barely know him. He is a douche most of the time anyways. That's because he doesn't wanna get hurt though. You'll just hurt him anyways. Or he'll hurt you. Don't give him that power don't give anyone the power to destroy you. I sighed and fell asleep.

I woke up to someone shouting and sat up. "Jodie wake up," It was Jack and Gwen. "I'm up sheesh," I mumbled and stood up walking to the bathroom. They were still talking in frantic voices. "I can't find a pulse," Gwen said. I walked out, "Haha real funny," I said sarcastically. I froze when I saw them next to a body. In my bed. Where I was sleeping. That's... Who the fuck is that. "Jodie please," Gwen mumbled. Oh my god is that me? Do I really look like that? I walked over and poked myself. This weird on so many levels. "Gwen..." Jack said almost in tears. "I don't understand she was fine yesterday," Gwen said in tears. Jack hugged her and she was crying. Wow they really care about me. "I'm not dead, I'm right here," I said frantically. I walked over and sat on the edge of the bed. I placed a hand on both of their shoulders and Jack looked around. "Aiden," he asked. Aiden was sleeping on the floor. "Jack It's me," I said practically shouting. "What was that," Gwen asked. "I don't know It was too quiet to make out," Jack said standing up. "Who's there? Jodie if it's you bang on the wall or something. I walked to the wall and mustered up all the energy I could and punched the wall. It didn't hurt but the wall dented a bit. Gwen screamed startled. "Atta girl. What happened," I focused my energy, "How the fuck should I know," I said standing in front of them. "So you can talk to us," he asked. I was starting to get tired. I focused my energy and wrote on a paper. Yes but it's exhausting. They read it. I looked around and noticed everything seemed bluer. I stumbled and collapsed laying on the floor. Aiden was in a tee shirt and jeans, "Jodie?" I looked up and asked, "A-Aiden?" "Hey little sis be careful. C'mon they're going to assume you passed to the other side," he said. He was used to existing like this but I was still reliant upon a physical form feeding me energy. He took the pen and wrote immitating my writing well. We need to figure out what happened and fast I don't know how long I can cling on.

Jack dragged his hand down his face. "How the hell are we going to explain this to Owen and Ianto," Gwen asked. "Explain what," Ianto asked in the doorway Owen behind him. I got up and rushed over. I tried to hug Owen but I didn't have the strength. "Fuck," I mumbled. "Watch your mouth kid," Aiden said. I turned around and walked to Aiden, "I fucking died or I didn't I don't really know, but I can't get the fuck back into my damn body and you're telling me to watch my mother fucking mouth!? No! Fucking priorities bitch my mouth isn't at the top of my damn list," I said in response. Owen was now staring at the ceiling and he looked back with a sigh. "How do we bring her back," he asked. This is exactly what I didn't want. Damnit! I sat on the bed. "Being a ghost fucking sucks," I mumbled, "I'M NOT EVEN DEAD!" Owen and Jack started yelling at each other. Ianto joined in then Gwen. They were all screaming at each other. I'm tearing them apart. This is all my fault. I felt the walls start to close in and reality came crashing down. I need to scream. I'm going to explode. I can't take this anymore!