Are you meant to physically be writing this as you sit in front of the mirror?
Well you are.
You have long, chocolate brown hair. It's awesome but boring. Awesome to style but boring for a daily routine. Your eyes. They are a hazel colour. I find them attractive. Your nose is well cool (Oh my gosh, the Essex accent is now coming through on Wattpad o.O)! I like your lip shape and colour. Your ears are like so cute. You don't like people who have horrible ears, strange girl.
I really don't know what to say to myself as well I wrote a similar letter like this before.
Looking at yourself in the mirror. You're not exactly someone you think you think you are. I don't know how to explain. When you're talking, you don't actually think what you look like - like you don't have a face! It's bizarre. You knock myself back. Despite how confident you may come across, you're be breaking inside. It's crazy.
Over these past 30 days I've learnt a lot about you! It's crazy. Amazes me how much people can affect your life! You've spoken about my best friends - these guys have helped you through so much. Made you laugh, been a shoulder. Being a friend.
Parents - these guys have showed you so much in life and you have a long way away to go and they'll be constantly guiding you.
Sister - despite the sisterly ups and downs your really not that bad. She did your homework for you today as it's your birthday weekend and we all know you'll be hammered! So thank you sister! She's been rather awesome lately come to think of it. You pair have done it all; all at a young age! You've flooded the house, broke the bed at 2AM, we've broken everything we practically touch. Last week was crazy! 12:30 in the morning and the spoke alarm started beeping. Y'all took the batteries out and everything. Nothing. Still beeped. What a night that was! Boy, you pair have done a lot! Many more to come!
Your boyfriend, well ex boyfriend - funny (well not funny) how all your relationship has been broadcasted on this 30 day letter! What a wheel-wirl it's been! Remember how you wrote about fearing for the worst for you? I was right. The gut instinct said so. He did it. That's physically the last straw in your relationship. You can't go on. Well your birthday is going to be awkward without him now. It's strange, you don't feel sad leaving him. You are happy. You've not even thought about life without him. You've spent 7 years with you and everything's gone. You've not seen you since last week but your not worried about him. I expected some feeling of sadness or fighting to get through it but no. Nothing. Numb. I think it may be because your almost boyfriend reconnected with you last week and you'ce missed that company. You've missed that smile. You've missed getting lost in those eyes. You've missed him.
Ok I'm getting side tracked.
You need to stop being a worrier. Dang bitch, the OCD is annoying. Why are we still checking if the door is locked?! You think to much. You are currently planning what to wear for day two of your party and let's face it, it doesn't matter how you dress as its outside with 32,000 people! You constantly have to think over and over again if you've done this, done that. It's boring!
You enjoy being hyper and a looney! It's fun! Enjoy life a hell lot more! But people think you're like a phyco, which is the sad thing. You'll be like totally funny but people will notice you through the awkward times, causing us not to be friends when you are like totally cool, funny and awesome!
What else can I say about you?
I like how you don't give to shit's at what bitches say! It's awesome seeing them unhappy at your happiness. Mwahahahha! Bitch can have your ex boyfriend! Best of luck to them. I personally don't see it working. He will only try to serenade you again!
I know you have your bad days, just like everyone else. And of course faults. You are stubborn. You don't like being told what to do.
On a lighter note; you love making people laugh daily. Big or small.
I wish you was a better person. You have so much to improve on! I'm not saying your not proud of who you are because you are!
Be proud of your reflection and don't give up!
