Don't Go Bring Me The Horizon Oli Sykes

Chap. 2: Still Breathing

-Alesana's POV-

I woke up and began to gasp for air again. "Alesana!" My mother said. I looked around the room and there stood Matt, Emma, and my mum. "M...mum.." I gasped. My oxygen mask somehow came off while I was blacked out and I guess they never noticed it.

"Alesana!" Matt ran over and put the oxygen mask back over my face and I was able to breathe after a few minutes. I took it off and looked at the three. "H...hi guys..." I stuttered. "Alesana! Please never again!" Matt said as him and my mum attacked me in a hug. "I...I'm sorry.." I said, as tears began to fill my eyes. "W...who saved m...me?" I asked them. "I...I did..." Emma had tears in her eyes as she said it. I gasped. "I'm so sorry Emma!" I cried.

"It's okay, love. But please, never do this to us again. We all love you and you can always talk to us." Emma told me. "I...I'm so sorry...." I pulled my knees up to my chest and rested my head on them and began to cry.

"No no no! Alesana! Don't cry! No more sadness please! It's okay! It's gonna get better! Please baby sis!" Matt cried, wrapping his arms around me. I leaned against my brother as he held me. "I love you guys..." I whispered. "We love you, too, Alesana.." My mum said. I wiped my tears and just kept leaning against my brother. "So, I'm going to go now, I'm sure you have other friends waiting to see you." My mum said. "I love you, mum.." I told her as she began to leave. "I love you too, Alesana." She smiled. "I'm going to go, too. I'll more than likely see you tomorrow, Alesana. Goodbye." Emma said as she left. I sighed and scooted over. "Get your fatass up here." I told Matt. He laughed lightly and got in the bed on my right side since my IV was on my left. "I wonder who's gonna visit next..." I said to myself.

"No clue.." Matt answered.

After a few minutes, I heard a knock on the door, causing me to jump and open my eyes. Matt jumped also then we both looked at the two entering my room.

"Oliver..." My brother growled. I looked up at Oliver and Jordan as tears began to fill my eyes again. "Ala...I'm so sorry!" Oliver said, walking up to my bed side and grabbing my hand. It made me flinch. I tried to pull my hand away as I cower into my brother. "Ala....please believe me...it was the alcohol..." He pleaded. "I thought you weren't supposed to be drinking..." I whispered. "I thought you were supposed to be eating..." He said in return. I snatched my head towards him. "How did you find out...?" I asked as more tears began to fill my eyes. "I...told him..." Jordan said, ashamed. I looked at Jordan and shook my head. "Ala...please forgive me..." Oliver said. "Get out..." I whispered. "What?" Oliver and Jordan asked. "Get out..." I said a bit louder. "Ala..please.." Oliver pleaded once again.

"I SAID GET OUT!" I shouted to the both of them. They jumped and Jordan left without a problem. "Ala...I love you...please...just..I ask for your forgiveness..." Oliver said. "Get out, Oliver." I whispered, not wanting to make eye contact with him. Oliver sighed and walked out of the room. Once the door was shut and I knew that he was gone, I started sobbing. "Matt...I love him..." I cried into his chest. "I know you do, Alesana."

"I didn't really want him to go! I want him to come back! I want him to hold me like he used to!" I was crying hard, and I was even shouting a little bit. "Alesana, quit crying. I know you love him. I know you want him to come back. It's hard, I know." He said, rubbing small circles around my back. "I NEED HIM MATT!" I shouted, crying harder.

-Oliver's POV-

I walked out of Ala's room and just leaned up against the wall and slid down. I put my head in my hands and just listened to Ala scream and cry. "I didn't really want him to go! I want him to come back! I want him to hold me like he used to!" I heard her shout. I heard Matt begin to talk, but I couldn't understand him. "I NEED HIM MATT!" Alesana shouted again. My heart began to break into a million pieces. "I love you, Ala....I really do..." I whispered. "Matt...bring him back..." I heard Ala say. "Alesana...." I heard him respond. "Please Matt..." She pleaded. I heard footsteps coming towards the door and quickly wiped my eyes with my sweatshirt sleeve.

The door to her room opened and Matt came out. "Get your ass up and in there Oliver." Matt mumbled. I stood up and looked at him. "Thanks..." I whispered. He grunted and walked to where everyone else is.

I walked into Ala's room and she was bunched up in a ball, crying. "Oh, Ala..." I whispered, walking up to her. Ala looked up with tears streaming down her face. "Oliver..." She whispered. My heart broke again. I wrapped my arms around her and she began to cry harder. "Ala...I'm so so sorry..." I told her, over and over. "Never again." I said, kissing her forehead.

"I'm sorry Oliver..it's my fault all together...if I would have eaten like I was supposed to, we wouldn't be here and you'd still be on tour having the time of your life and meeting fans...and just...not being stuck with a suicidal freak..." She whispered into my chest. "Alesana. Please do not call yourself a suicidal freak. I guess it's actually both of our faults. We both broke our promises..." I responded. "I broke 2 promises..." She whispered. How many times will my heart shatter?

I hugged Alesana tighter and she cried harder. "Alesana, never again. Never again for both of us. I love you so so much." I told her. "Come up here..." She said. I pulled away, walked over to the other side and climbed in beside her. "I'm so sorry, Oliver..." She whispered, digging her head into my side. I wrapped my arms around her and held her tight, scared to let go.  "It's okay, love. Everything will be okay..." I told her. Alesana wrapped her non-stiched, non-IV arm around me and cried again.

After a while, Alesana had fallen asleep, and I was beginning to grow tired as well. "Sir, visiting hours are over." A nurse said once she entered the room. "Would you be able to make the exception of her brother staying....she's really going to need him tonight..." I asked. "I've already talked to her brother, he's going to be in here in a minute, say goodbye to Miss Nicholls, I promise you can come back tomorrow." She said. I nodded and kissed Ala's head then untangled ourselves and exited her bed. "I love you." I whispered, kissing her head again. The nurse smiled at me, to which I did in return, and I exited the room, bumping into Matt on the way.

|Oh my Jesus guys, I'm sorry it's been a few days. I've had an eventful weekend. I saw BOTDF, Haley Rose, The Millionaires, Taking On Poseidon, and Mind of a Machine on Friday in ATX, then I went to Warped yesterday and had guitar lessons with Jacky Vincent of FIR, saw Motionless In White, Falling In Reverse, Get Scared, saw some of Crown The Empire, Ghost Town, saw some of Attila, Wax, and I believe that was it. But...I got sunburned extremely bad on my shoulders at Warped and I'm in pain...(fuck you Mia for making fun of me...) and yeah...have a nice day!!!^-^|