11 Years Alone - Sander Sides -

Chapter Seven

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 Although not wanting to admit it to himself, Anxiety felt...excited. This didn't seem like a bad thing at first, but, he started to think about how foolish he may be planning to act. There was just plenty of things that could go wrong this evening, but he was deciding to be in-denial about it. 

 First off, how could he be so weak minded? These people treated him like dirt for so long, yet he instantly agreed to watch a movie with him? Was he this desperate for a chance? For affection? For love?

 What if it was all some cruel joke against him? That they were just going to humiliate him? 

 Just the thought caused him to panic a bit. Sure, he knew he was the anxious trait by now. He knew his habits and what bothered him the most, but he could never get used to the feelings he felt when it happened. Everything made him feel so...alone. 

 The worst thing he could even remotely think about was how Roman would react to him being there, did he even know? What if he just orders him to go back to his room? What if Logan and Patton didn't stand up for him? 

 He shook his head, no, there were too many 'what ifs'.

 Should he just bail? 

 He couldn't second guess his thinking for even a second longer as his bedroom door abruptly opened. He tensed up, fear running down his back. Though, he eventually eased a bit as he saw the logical side standing before him. 

 Logan adjusted his glasses, looking up before speaking to him. "We're going to start the movie soon...is Disney okay?"

 Anxiety smiled, an innocence to his face as he did so. It was something Logan could honestly say he hadn't seen in a long, long time. The look itself had caused Logan to grin too. 

 Anxiety scratched the back of his neck before speaking, "Yeah...I actually really like Disney."

 The confession made Logic raise a brow, it was definitely something he never thought he'd admit. "You and Princey have that in common."

 The name of the fanciful side made the room fall silent. Logan immediately felt guilty for bringing him up as soon as he saw the other's smile disappear.

 The logical side approached the other, hesitantly putting his hand on Anxiety's shoulder. For some reason, he didn't flinch, he just looked up. "Anxiety...I know you and Roman have had quite a troubling past. Much more...concerning than anyone else's. I understand that it is hard to forgive, but maybe tonight wont go as badly as you may seem to think. Maybe you'll both...have at least a small understanding of one and other."

 The words practically fell out of Logan's mouth as he said them so put together, he wanted to fight with Logan but the way he had just said everything, put his mind in perspective. "Logan, I...agree with you, but it's worthless! Roman doesn't want to forgive me!" 

 Logan sighed, sympathy clearly written on his features. "It's not that he doesn't want to, it's that he doesn't know how to."

 Virgil swallowed nervously, could it be true that Roman...wants to make some sort of amends? He didn't want to get his hopes up but...was it possible that there might be just the smallest bit of a chance? 

 He sighed, smiling to Logan in a not so wholesome manner. "I'll...I'll try. But you know my stance on this, I don't think it's going to work."

 Logic nodded, and seemed to acknowledge where the other were coming from. "Trying is as good you can do. As long as you do your part, Princey should be expected to do his." 

 Virgil shook his head up and down back, taking a deep breath before realization hit him. "This is the first time I've ever felt as if you were...on my side." 

 The other looked up, wide eyes and all. Was this true? Had he really never taken his side before this moment? He had never thought about it before, truly, but he had...really let him down. 

 "Logan? Are you...okay? You're tearing up."

 Logan was taken out of his thoughts as he touched his eyes, he was...crying. "Oh...I suppose I am. I apologize."

 Anxiety's face saddened. "Don't apologize for crying."

 Logan shook his head, and instantly pulled Anxiety into a hug. Virgil stayed stiff. "I'm not apologizing for crying that's just...a silly emotion. I am saying sorry as I have never stood up for you." 

 Anxiety listened to the other's words carefully, amazed as he once thought the trait before him was almost robotic. He hugged back, almost as tightly as he could. "I forgive you."

 Logan smiled to himself before pulling back, and looking into the other's eyes. "We should go...Patton will panic or something of the sort."

 Anxiety chuckled, happy to have some sort of slate with the other. "Yeah. Alright."

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