You Complete Me

Chapter 1: Back story

Three years.
It has been three years since Anthony and I broke up.
He was my first and only boyfriend growing up.
Growing up never getting male attention made me desperate to get it.
Throughout our relationship no matter how many times he broke me, I still fought for him because I was afraid of having to live my life without him.
I was naive.
A year into our relationship him and his family moved to New York.
I was heart broken but determined to still be with him.
When I graduated high school I was determined to get into any college In New York to be with him.
Thank god I did not do it for him.
During the summer after I had just graduated high school I received a text from him.
He told me he was sorry but he could no longer continue this relationship because he had met someone else.
I was heartbroken.
When fall arrived I attended a local
College in my home town to take my general classes for the next two years.
While attending school I still lived at home with my parents and brother.
I felt like a loser.
One lonely Saturday night I got up from bed and headed to the bathroom to shower.
I stripped off my clothes and caught a glimpse of my naked body in the mirror in front of me.
I cried.
Weight had always been an issue for me ever since I was a child.
However I never cared and decided to ignore it.
But that night I no longer could.
I was quite small only being 5'2 and I was so overweight.
I felt disgusted with my self for letting my weight get so out of control and it was the last straw for me.
Everyday after classes I headed to the gym.
Every single day.
I dieted as well.
I went from being 201 pounds to 134 pounds in two years.
I know what you all must be thinking.
Wow that's amazing you most look so good now.
But I didn't feel amazing or look so good in my opinion.
I still felt like that overweight 17 year old girl all over again.
My mom tried hard to take me shopping for my new body but I just couldn't do it.
No matter how much weight I lost I still did not feel beautiful.
She eventually let it go and finally let me be.
Now being newly skinny I was still so depressed.
Receiving an acceptance letter from New York University was probably one of the happiest days I have had in a long time.
I was going to NYU to be able to major in writing, something that I was so passionate about so I was beyond thrilled.
However moving day was hard.
I was so sad to be leaving my family and everything I knew behind and move half way around the world.
But I had to do it.
When I got there I was beyond terrified.
After finally finding my apartment, I got settled in but still felt so lonely.
My first day at NYU was even worse.
I was lost. Intimidated. Lonely.
That's until I met Victoria.
She had noticed me one day standing alone on campus on my phone when she suddenly approached me.
She recognized me from our Creative writhing class we had together.
She asked if I was okay and I told her I was but she didn't buy it.
She insisted we go to lunch which I agreed to.
We ate, had some drinks, and most importantly bonded.
And now? She's my best friend.
She helped with my confidence.
One day while studying she practically barged in my room and begged me to go shopping with her which I reluctantly agreed to.
During the trip we quickly realized we both have an insane obsession with clothes, shoes and make up.
She then asked me why I never dressed in the things I liked.
I admitted to her it's because I know I would never be able to pull it off.
She glared at me and dragged me to the dressing room.
She put together an outfit and made me try it on.
When she told me to come out I took a deep breath before walking out to be greeted but her wide eyes.
She complimented me and said she wished she had my "banging body".
I shook my head and tried walking back into the dressing room but she pulled me out and turned me towards the mirror and i saw it.
I saw a girl with beautiful long brown hair, almond eyes, a button nose, pouty lips, and an hour glass figure.
She was stunning.
That girl was me.
That's when my life changed forever.
I finally realized I am beautiful and sexy.
And that's the moment I finally had confidence.
A year had passed since then and I'm aril confident as ever maybe even more confident, I was doing amazing at Pratt university, and I was financially all one my own.
I had everything and it was perfect.
Except I wanted one more thing that would make me whole.
Love.
Growing up I was obsessed with romance movies and books and just anything romantic.
But I was convinced it was all just fiction.
That's why it only happened in books no in real life.
Just when I reached a point Where I promised myself I would not fall for any guys childish game was the day my life changed for ever.
The day I finally found him.