Just Brotherly Love-Emivan

Chapter 2//Emilio

-2 mouths later-
I do have feelings for my brother.  He is just so perfect and I can't get him off my mind.  It was like he was my world and I want him to just be mine already. 

When Ivan got back from his little ran one night, he took off his shirt and grabbed a towel.  He went to take a shower, I just laid in bed acting like I was sleeping.

Ivan-I know your not sleeping you little asshole

He has been calling me names that people at school would call me, he has been since that night about the video game thing.

He slapped me and I just took the abuse, I fell asleep crying every night and no one sees my pain.

When I woke up the next morning, wishing I didn't.  I went to the bathroom and washed my hair and went back to bed, going to sleep.

Dream

Ivan's hands where on my waste and he was kissing my body and neck.  His head calmed me with every fingertip, he looked up at me and smailed. 

Emilio-This is only a dream
Ivan-Yeah, but just think about my body and how much you want it
Emilio-I can't it will break me when I wake up
Ivan-You don't want to wake up though
Emilio-Ture
Ivan-Don't you want this

He grabbed my hands and put them around his neck, I really do want him do bad.  I kissed him and he stopped and looked at me,

Ivan-You worthless piece of shit, you are wrong for thinking these things that you want to do with me, why don't you just go kill yourself

Wake up

I woke up and out of breath, I looked around and Ivan was playing on his phone, he looked at me and I had enough of this.

Emilio-Go on say what you have to say
Ivan-Emilio, your going crazy
Emilio-Yeah maybe I am because I love you, maybe because I know you don't love me back
Ivan-Your wrong to love me Emilio, I'm just your brother, who would ever want to date you
Emilio-I'm sorry you feel that why Ivan, I'm sorry that you have a loser brother like me that makes your life terrible
Ivan-Emilio-
Emilio-I'm sorry that you can't have a normal brother that only loves you as a brother
Ivan-Emilio-
Emilio-I should just kill myself, what so great about living, you wouldn't miss you you would be-
Ivan-DON'T YOU DARE FUCKING SAY YOU SHOULD KILL YOURSELF, I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU TOO
Emilio-WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO MS THEN
Ivan-Because I felt wrong knowing that this is against the law
Emilio-So you put me down
Ivan-No I tried to distance myself from you

I shack my head and he came and grabbed me.  I was just a pit taller then him and that made this so cute, he took my neck and I hold his hands.

Ivan-Don't ever feel that you are better off dead
Emilio-I couldn't take it, when you called me those names, you felt like a stranger
Ivan-I know, I hate what I did to you
Emilio-I hate that you feel like you had to distance yourself from me if you don't want to act that way to me then just tell me, don't make--

I couldn't believe what was happening, my brothers lips were on mine and it felt so good.  I kissed him back and he moved his hands down to my stomach and it felt just like the dream.

Everything thing felt right, everything I ever hope a pray was at this moment.  All I wanted was to kiss my brother with out anyone borthing in.