my dearest kazuya || miyuki kazuya

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my dearest Kazuya,

you know, i'm starting to come to terms with you not liking me back. you're happy with a wonderful girlfriend that will probably last a life time. she may not be me, but that's okay. because you're happy and that's what matters. i couldn't force you to like me. that wouldn't make you happy.

i may even confess to you someday, before the third years graduate. why then? i don't know.

but guess what?! i've started learning sign language! i know, it's nothing special but i feel good because i'm learning something that can help me talk to so many more people. if i was with you, we could both probably learn it together and accomplish things together. but it's not like that, now is it?

i might try and tell you this fact tomorrow during lunch. i'll tell the table and see how people react. you probably won't hear a thing because you and your girlfriend will be too in love with each other to notice anything i do or say, but i'm gonna tell others to get their support.

again, i think i'll confess to you shortly before the third years graduate, because then if it doesn't go well i can ask to be switched classes in the new year and it'll be okay. advanced classes would be good for me.

talk to you soon,

sincerely,
a girl who is coming to terms with her love for you