Psycho Path

Chapter 12 - SOS

You both are now back on the deserted road. The forest from before seems to has disappear out of sight. Being back here always make you feel uneasy, because it's like you'll never see the end of the road. Well actually, being in the forest do make you feel unsafe as well. So you can't really decide which one's worse to be honest. And why the heck would you make yourself pick between those two, when being around Gerard is always NOT SAFE. Wherever you are, as long as Gerard is by your side, there won't be any feeling of at ease. Gerard is driving, and you swear to yourself that you've never seen him this serious. Eyes glued to the road, and lips shut like they are stitched together. Only God knows how scared you are right now.

Suddenly he stops the car. You are startled by his sudden screams and yelling. He's hitting the steering wheel so hard and knocking his hand on the window beside him quite a few times that you believe bruises might form on his knuckles. You are scared as hell now. That's it. It's time to get out of the car. And run. Just run wherever your feet would take you, away from the maniac beside you. You reach for the handle slowly, praying inside he wouldn't notice. Unfortunately, the door is locked and make a sound as the door isn't budging. This makes Gerard's eyes snapped at you. His hand is going fast to grab the back of your neck. "And where the heck you think you're going?!!" You yelp in pain at the sudden grip on the back of your head. "N-nooo... I-I'm sorry.. I-I'm not going anywhere." You plead at him, tears already rolling down your cheeks. Then he hisses at you, as he pulls your head closer to him. "It's all because of you!! You are the reason everything happened!!!" He screams at you. This doesn't help at all, you cry harder. Then he pushes your head to hit the dashboard in front of you. Pulling your head back, he hiss at your ear some more. "You made me kill Frank as well!!!" Then pushes you to the front again. The actions seem to keep on repeating. "If only you are well-behaved, just like I wanted you to!!!" Your head hitting the dashboard again. At this point, your nose is bleeding already, and you could feel a bruise forming on your forehead. "I became like this, because of you too!!!!!" Another hit on your head. Your view is hazy already. Your eyes are barely open.

That is when you decide to open your mouth. "Just f-f*cking kill me..already." Gerard is still gripping your head. His face twitches a bit. Then he slams his lips hard on yours. You are too weak to protest at the moment. He bit your lower lip in a very harsh way, but you aren't sure whether the blood you are tasting is from your tore lip or the blood flowing down from your nose. Gerard is 'cleaning up' the blood as well with his tongue. If it's not because of the pain you are enduring right now, you probably find it sickening hot. Gerard tightens his grip. This makes you whimper in the kiss, as he groans and shoves his tongue inside your mouth. He's having full control of you. You feel helpless, tired out of nothingness. He finally pulls away, taking a glance at your face. You have purple forehead, the nosebleed is coming to a stop, and lips looking red and swollen. He leans his forehead on yours, and you wince at the contact. "I can't." is all he said, before he pulls away, and gets out of the car. You are left there, feeling empty and cold. You stay quiet as you hear the back door being opened. Gerard comes back with some medical supplies and food in his hand. Probably the one Frank bought this morning. Frank. You are trying so hard not to break down again as he suddenly comes to your mind. You miss him already. "Eat this. I need to make a call." He hands you the rest of the stuff. You slowly take them from his hand. Then he left, letting the loneliness to hit you again.

Gerard walks a little away from the car. He actually feels guilty for hurting you. But he really2 needs to make the phone call now. Dialing Mikey's number on Frank's phone, he waits for the ringing to end. "Hello, who's this?" Mikey answers the call. "Mikey. It's me, Gerard." "GER- What t-the ffffff..." Gerard can sense that his brother is about to shout his name out loud. But he hears shuffling sound, probably Mikey is leaving wherever he is. "Where've you been?!! The town's been a freakin' mess dude! Why's the police after you and Y/n??" Mikey is whisper-yelling, making sure nobody is around from time to time. Gerard knows that his innocent little brother doesn't believe the police, and never blame him for what befell Ray; but he was wrong. "Mikey,... I'm sorry but.. I killed Ray." There is silence on the other line. Then Mikey speaks, "Gerard,... mummy is f*cking upset. She's been crying non-stop. It's hurt to see her taking all the blame for what her son did, feeling guilty for no reason. Did you know that she's been going to Toro's house every f*cking day, to apologize. But the family's has been shutting themselves away from the world."

Gerard heart breaks in half upon hearing Mikey. He holds himself from breaking down right there and then. "M-mikey... I didn't mean to. I'm so messed up. A-and I need your help, at least some support from my brother. You are my only hope right now." Gerard slightly sobs as he pleads to Mikey. Again, there is silence. "Is Y/n with you?" Mikey asks. "Y-yeah. She's with me. Poor pretty Y/n, she's been dragged into this mess as well. She did nothing wrong. I-if you hate me, then it's okay, I understand. B-but at least, have pity on her. I-I don't think she can be okay all the time, being with only me." Gerard hears Mikey sighs, before Mikey asks "Where are you?" "We're on our way to (hometown). I'll meet you up that hill, you remember?" Mikey nods, though Gerard couldn't see him, but he understands. Gerard continues, "So I'll see you in about an hour?" "Set." That was Mikey's only reply before they both hung up. Gerard falls down onto his knees, sighing, while messing his red hair with his hands. He looks at the car, feeling sorry for you. So he stands up and makes his way to the car.

As Gerard gets in the car, he notices that you haven't touch the food at all."Babe, why aren't you eating? You need to eat or you'll get sick." He sounds so concern about you. He lifts a hand to stroke your cheek, but you back away. A look of hurt on his face. Then, suddenly he cries. This surprises you. "I-I'm sorry Y/n... I'm sooo sorry....." He's back to that soft side of him. It's your turn to feel guilty, for no reason. So you reach out your arms to hug him,stroking his back for comfort, then kiss the top of his head. "I-it's okay,it's okay. I-I'll eat." You decide to say that. He takes your face in his hands. "You hurt so much, because of me. I am hurting too. Tell me Y/n, are we having a healthy relationship?" He sobs a lot when saying that. You have no idea what to reply. "Oh, Gerard..." Luckily, he cuts you off. "It's okay, I-i've called Mikey. We'll meet him. I-i hope he can make you at least feel at home,with his presence." You are happy to hear that, but didn't show to Gerard."Then, let's." You say as you put your hand on top of his. Gerard wipe away his tears, then smiles at you. He kisses your forehead, then a soft peck on the lips, before he goes to start the engine, and drives to (hometown).