Psycho Path

Chapter 3 - Don't f*cking use that kind of language on me!!

You wake up to a faint sound. Is that 'Boulevard of Broken Dreams'? You pick up your head slowly. Eyes adjusting to your surroundings. You're in a moving car. Confused about this, you turn your head towards the driver. Gerard is driving, with a Green Day song in the background. He seems relax. Then he looks at you. "You're feeling okay, sweetheart?" he asks with a gentle smile plastered on his face. You aren't quite sure what to answer. And you're not sure what to feel as well. What was the last thing that happened? All you can remember is that you and Gerard are no longer couples. Yet, there he is, driving beside you. And talking to you in a sweet manner.

This confuses you. "Where are we going?" You ask. "Oh, we are just leaving (your town name), to a better future." He says, as if you guys never broke up before. This surprises you. "Wait. You can't simply take me to nowhere! We aren't even couples anymore! Plus Ray is at my apartm-" And that's when it hits you. You just witnessed Ray lifeless body. Gerard was there. Nothing more can be right than what you thought right now. "You killed Ray..." You almost yell at him. Gerard's eyes are straight on the road now. His mouth keeps shut. His expression displays a look of unconcern. "YOU KILLED RAY!!" Your voice got louder and you are hyperventilating now. "You killed Raaaayyyyyy!!!" By this time, tears are falling down your cheeks already. You are crying so hard, your head is spinning from the thought that Ray is dead. He's gone. He's no longer around.

Your loud sobbing is making Gerard mad unfortunately. He steps on the brake harshly, causing the car to stop immediately. This sends you forward and your face hit the front dashboard. You lift your face up, only now realizing the deserted surrounding. No other cars in sight, even gas stations or small shops by the road. You groan in pain and touch your nose. Blood. Head still feeling dizzy, Gerard grabs the back of your head, forcing you to look at him. "THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT OKAY?!! NOW IF YOU COULD JUST SHUT THE F*CK UP AND LET ME DRIVE IN PEACE WHILE WE FIND SOMEWHERE TO EAT, OKAY?!" You are stunned. Tears are begging to come out again. You are not sure whether it's because Gerard raised his voice at you or the fact that he just used the 'F' word on you. When you guys were still a couple, Gerard would never use that kind of language, knowing how much you dislike that attitude of him. That's Gerard. Always do anything for you. You kinda miss the old relationship you guys had.

The tears couldn't be hold any longer. They are falling down your cheeks now. But you keep quiet, afraid of Gerard's intimidating behavior just now. Gerard sighs, hands now cupping your cheeks. Then he gets out of the car and look up for something in the back. You just keep your stare straight into nowhere. He comes back with tissues and a few stuff to clean out your bleeding nose. One hand cups your cheek again while the other gently wipes the blood off your nose. You miss his touch. After he's done, he put aside all the stuff and touch your face again. "Look,.....i'm sorry..okay? So many things happen. I couldn't think straight. I didn't mean to treat you so badly. So I really2 hope that you could make everything easy for me."

So many things going around your head right now. But, directly asking him, in this situation, is really2 a bad idea. Suddenly he leans in and gives you a kiss on the lips; a kiss that you've been longing for the past few weeks. You couldn't resist the urge to kiss him back but he already pulls off. He gives you a genuine smile. Oh, how you miss that smile. There is too much love in the air at the moment so you decide not to think about all the mess for now. Gerard then starts the car, and you guys are back on the road.