Journals - Daniel Seavey ✔︎

22

*Skylar's pov*
I sit on the bed as Daniel paces around looking lost.
"Daniel" I stand up
My arms ache to wrap around him but I refuse to touch him.
"Just wait Skylar" he mumbles and keeps pacing
"Daniel please" I grab his wrist making him stop and he looks down into my eyes
I stare into his ocean blue eyes and try to not drown but of course I fail.
"I'm so sorry for what I'm about to do" he whispers
I frown but then his lips slam against mine and he lifts me up making my legs wrap around his waist and I tangle my arms around his neck. He carries me towards the bed and he lays me down as he hovers over me kissing me roughly.
Nothing has felt so wrong and so right at the same time.
He starts making his way down my jaw and then he finds my sweet spot and a soft moan slips from my mouth.
"I am such a idiot" he mumbles and continues to attack my neck
"Daniel stop" I push him away and cover my neck with my hand
"I'm sorry" he looks away and then sighs putting his head in his hands
"I just don't know what to do anymore..I'm so lost without you Skylar" he grabs my hands
"But you love her Daniel" I whimper
"No please listen Skylar...I do but I love you too" he kisses me again softly but I shove him away
"Well then you need to make a choice Daniel. Her or me?" I pull away and sit back down on my bed
"I don't know" he sighs and sits down in a chair across from me
"Well I'm not gonna sit in my room crying over you if you choose her" I stand up and walk towards my bathroom
"Skylar I just don't know!" Daniel follows me and I trace the scars on my wrist as I look at myself in the mirror
"What would of happened if I actually died?" I whisper as a tear rolls down my cheek
"What do you mean?" He walks to my side
"What if the ambulance wasn't called and I died in the toilets that night when you all chose to believe her over me" I look down at the scar and shivers run down my spine
"I would've never forgiven myself" he whispers and pulls me to his chest
"Would you still be with her?" I pull away and look up at him
"I...don't really know" he looks away
"I'm not going to fight for you if you won't fight for me Daniel...I can go to Joe and talk to him if I really need to" I cross my arms
"Fine go to him I'm not stopping you" Daniel growls and storms out and I hear my door slam
I shake my head and walk towards my closet and start shoving clothes into a bag. I grab my keys and wallet and then my phone and I walk out and everyone stares at me in shock.
"Where are you going?" Zoe stands up pulling Jonah up with her
"To see Joe. What is his address?" I pull out my notes and she looks around as if asking for permission
"Okay" she nods and gives it to me and then I wave to everyone walking towards the door
"You are really leaving!?" Daniel yells and his words echo in my head from the night we kissed on the bus
"It was all a mistake Daniel" my eyes flicker to his face and he was staring at me with sad eyes
"That night on the bus was a mistake. What we just did in my room was a massive mistake...congratulations Aspen you won" I look at Aspen as she stands behind him with confused eyes
"It isn't easy to say this but you really just won the person I let into my world only to let him tear it down" I let a tear roll down my cheek and Aspen looks at the ground
"What happened in your room and on the bus?" She looks between Daniel and I
"Something a boyfriend shouldn't do with a girl other than his girlfriend" I run a hand through my hair
"See you around guys" I whisper and walk out the door and I climb into the car seat.
"I'm coming Joe" I whisper and book a flight to London.