Hush

I don't know

I'm trying to see if I can do this
Can I break without you there to tell me the pieces are all in place
Fuck the fancy fonts
Tonight it is me
It is me and figuring it out
And talking to someone
But not you
And they don't know
Not really
So today I just might fucking shatter
Tonight tomorrow this morning
This is now and I am breaking on my own
I will see if I can do this on my own
And I know we are drifting
And I know I will lose you all in a small infinity
And god knows I'm not ready for it
But I will do it and I will break and I will shatter and utterly destroy myself
But I will do I without aid
This time I will really be alone
God have I ever felt this alone
God we'll see if I can sit and lie here and stair at the sealing while something within me happens while I feel
While I feel with no restriction no restraint
I have been so dependent on you for so long but today I will do this
You weren't here
You weren't here again
And I know this is just some stupid kid thing but I don't care
I needed you and you weren't here
None of you
I will get bad again
And I'll shut everyone out
God let's see how this goes.