Hush

Ask me again if i hate you

You speak in poetry's and mixed signals vague words with fireflies of meaning
And
I will never understand you
Your words confusing and unfazed so different from what I'm used to

Normality for me was always being told what was happening no codes
I've known them all to well
With the others I knew everything all there quirks mannerisms
They were mine
I understood them knew everything they had to hide
everything familiar easy to read

But you're different
Oh no use of asking you what's wrong when all you do is ignore me
Let me save you from drowning
All I get is Morse code from you, codes and poems, strange words . I'll never be able to help unless you teach me how

Looking for the answers in the pouring rain that's all I'm doing.
And here's what you tell me.
Hush go back to sleep no more asking questions dear.

I have never met someone who spoke so much like me

I've never felt more comfortable

And I think I hate you for the same reasons I hate myself.

Every word of anger, Every I hate you that I spat at you was aimed towards myself .

But I am no closer to understanding you then I am to understanding myself and I am far from that.