Mocking Jay TRAPPED

Chapter 8- Torture

When I wake up, Jason is at my side trying to explain to me what happened but I wasn't listening very well though because I was still in a panic.

Breathing heavily, not paying attention to anyone, I went into my own world. I screamed for Katniss, for her to notice me again. My cheeks were hot and I was sweating. Jason brings me to another room where nurses surround me. I assume it was the hospital but I didn't care. The nurses lay me down and put some cold water on my forehead. They put something on my mouth so I breathe slower. I start to calm down.

I finally come to my senses and I notice Jason is next to me still. I want to know why Katniss blew me off.

"Jason...why did Katniss....And Finnick ignore me...And act in love?"  I think of a terrible thought. "Or are they really in love?"  I cringe as I say it.

"Peeta....the Capital does terrible things to its prisoners. Annie was trapped for years, tortured.  And Joanna was drenched in water and and then electrocuted. Who knows what they did to Finnick and Katniss. I assume they tricked their minds somehow to torture you as well. And so far...it's working"  He frowned. "You need to ignore it. They aren't really in love. Can't you see the dazed look in their eyes?  The nurses are going to try some experiments and try to trigger some memories of theirs" 

Expiriments.  Stupid Capital.

"When...are the experiments gonna happen.  And, maybe....if I saw her for some time and talked to her....she would remember?"  I cautiously asked.

"Perhaps. I will ask the nurses." He raises his eyebrows at me. "And I'm sorry this has happened....to you" 

"Thanks"  I looked at my feet. He walked away.

Jason was right. The Capital wanted this, for me to be like this. Besides, Katniss had to get better, Finnick as well. I couldn't let the Capital make me weaker. The rebellion depended on it not happening.

I knew that they, the nurses, would never let me see Katniss while she was like this. But I really wanted to see her. I was going to see her.......

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It was late at night. I figured there weren't going to be as many doctors as there would during the day. I peeked through the hospital window. Dark...And hardly anyone was there. 

I rested my hand on the doorknob, there was no turning back now. I gently turned it and, click, it came open.  I lightly walked in quickly and saw her right away.

I almost called out her name....then remembered I wasn't supposed to be here. Kneeling by her bed....I covered her mouth so she wouldn't scream.

"Hey Katniss....It's me...Peeta"  I whispered.

Suddenly I saw the whites of her eyes....panicked. She didn't know who I was. Then I saw another figure next to her as my eyes adjusted to the dark. Finnick.

"Finnick...do you remember me?  Peeta?" 

He started blankly at me. "You....left me in the hole.  For THEM to take me."  His stare turned to a glare....And his whisper turned to a yell. "You let them take me!!!!!"  He glared one more time and turned away....kissing Katniss. 

There heads were together for a long time. The longer they were, the more I got angry....at the Capital, and myself. I DID leave Finnick there...but not on purpose. Doesn't he understand that?  I didn't know. I knew I should get out of here because someone probably heard Finnick's yell, but I wanted to try one more thing.

"Hey...Katniss?  Do you want to hear a story?"  I slowly whispered.

She started at me....trying to place who I was.  Then she nodded.

"Ok..."  I was so excited she nodded. Maybe she was starting to remember me. "Once, there were two tributes from district 12. Their names were Peeta Mellark....me, and Katniss Everdeen...you. They were known as the star crossed lovers from district 12. As tributes... they were forced to take part in the Hunger Games. After 2 weeks of torture, they came out winners...together. They continued their love for each other. And went in the next Quarter Quell....where only victors went in the Hunger Games. Peeta, Katniss and Finnick and Joanna were pulled out with the others when the arena was blown. Only...Katniss was taken by the Capital."  I paused. "And now you were rescued. And together, we can lead the rebellion to shut down the Capital from all they put us through."  I decided to add something. "Please Katniss....remember. Not the torture...not the Capital... but me. And all we went through together. Just remember me. Please"  I pleaded.

She was still staring. Then she opened her mouth. "I'm sorry...I just don't know who you are"  Then, as bad as my pain was....she turned around and was back with Finnick.

My heart was being stabbed, or at least that's what it felt like.

I ran....with no direction, running aimlessly until I found my room. I kicked open the door and threw myself on my bed. Katniss was still taken from me. Maybe not physically, but mentally.

I felt tears in my eyes. No. I told myself.  I will not let this throw me the way the Capital thinks it will. I am not weak. I stand up, shower and go to bed. And of course, I had a nightmare.

In the nightmare, Katniss was there, only behind glass. She was kissing Finnick. I pounded on the glass, kicked it, punched it, but I couldn't break it. She completely ignored me. I kept pounding though, until my fists were all purple and swollen. I couldn't do anything except sit there, begging for her to look at me. Then the Capital came and shot all of us.

I woke suddenly, sweating. I knew what the dream meant. I could not be lured in by this, could not be weakened. Or else....the Capital would win.

Plutarch suddenly ran in. "Peeta, we have a problem"

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