My Lust For Him

*Kylie's Backstory*

(P.S. Kylie is Kiera's best friend and Kyle's girlfriend.)

Kylie's POV

It's hard when you find out that you're best friend is a backstabbing bitch and that your dream guy and boyfriend is a stupid ass scumbag! I bet that you have been backstabbed before... I just expected better from her... I mean she's my best friend, how could she do this to me?! Have I not been a good friend and done everything in my will to make her happy? I've been the nicest person in the world to her! And she doesn't give a shit!

I've tried so hard to be a good friend... and this is how she repays me? Ok... I'll admit it... I'm kind of playing the victim card, but am I really? Or am I actually the real victim here? ~ mind ~ nope you're playing the victim as you always do because you're insecure as fuck! Shut up mind, no one cares about your opinion! But do I really deserve this? ~mind~ yes. Ok, I probably do... but what did I do to her to deserve it?

~Mind's POV~

You did plenty of things... like sleeping with her boyfriend in high school, took her dream guy that was your's as well but she didn't know that you knew she liked him, spread rumors about her to people and when the rumors came back to her you lied and blamed it on multiple of her other friends, when she got sick because of her pregnancy and you knew it was your boyfriend's baby so you tried to spike her food and drinks with pills that would abort her baby, but she was nice and didn't want you to go through tons of work to help her feel better so she declined the food and drinks. Should I go on?

Kylie's POV

Ok, ok, ok, I understand. Please don't go on... I'm good. But she didn't know about those things, what she doesn't know won't hurt her. Right?

But secrets become revealed when babies come along...

I knew that I shouldn't have lied about being pregnant so that I could keep Kyle and my relationship together. But what would you have done? Let them go on in life and live happily ever after with a family ~mind~ yes. Hell no! I couldn't ever let him leave me... I mean yes, I have cheated on him a few times but what he doesn't know won't hurt him.

Plus I've fallen head over heals for him and I don't think that I can pick my head up if he's gone. My anxiety, insecurities, and depression all go away when I'm with him...

And I just need someone to be with me and keep me from drowning in my regrets and my mistakes that I've made. Because the truth is I'm insecure... I'll admit it.

But I just feel like it's me against the world... and I don't think that true love will be in the long run. The run that I have to take to get away from my past, my sorrows, and most importantly...

Myself.