maybe I shouldn't long to know
the taste you would leave behind on my lips
after being pressed against mine
and maybe your eyes shouldn't feel
like a blue hypnosis
and your body shouldn't have
it's own
gravitational pull
and
maybe
I shouldn't be such a hypocrite
speaking in one breath
your name
and pushing out the next
with disdain
I tell myself
it's best to be indifferent
to pull away
I shouldn't want feel myself fall
fall
falling for you isn't an option
I shouldn't long to feel so vulnerable
but what's so magnetic about you
is how you don't want me
at all
all
all the time my mind dwells
on the way your body moves,
how it shouldn't move
against me,
and how I want it to
so desperately.
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