Reality Sunday [COMPLETED]

Chapter 19

D-14  B L A C K P I N K ' s  C O M E B A C K

TUESDAY..

Y/N's POV

Fucked up life I have here right? Fucking problems started to pile up in front of me.

First problem, me getting in between with my mission and my love life. How am I suppose to handle this? Fuck! I don't think I can just back out with my mission knowing that our superior President Kim will be surely disappointed with me and also Ahjumma.

I don't want to let the people who took care of me and Jongin oppa down. I don't want them to think that I am not grateful enough about them adopting me and giving me the better life I have now.

But..

But what can I do?

I don't want to hurt Jennie anymore.

I don't want to hide things from her anymore.

I love her.

So much that I am willing to risk even my profession just to keep her by my side.

Pretty fucked up right?

I can't help but just sigh with the situation I have here.

I haven't solved this problem yet another thing came up yesterday.

YG got bombarded by media on what's the real deal between me and Jennie after our pictures outside the mall hugging and laughing surfaced online.

I feel so angry at myself for getting Jennie in this big mess thinking this will surely affect her career and everything. I even felt more bad when she even blackmailed Mr. Kang of leaving YG if they wouldn't let us date just like how Jennie wanted.

Stubborn girl..

Another thing I loved about her.

I smiled at the thought making me realize that just thinking about Jennie can clear my worries away.

But-

"Hey kiddo!"

"Kkamjagiya!"

"Sorry kid!" *chuckles*

"What is it now Ahjumma?" I said whining

"Stop whining, you should be celebrating now! You just accomplished your mission kid! Congratulations!!"

"Please stop.."

"What's going on?"

"I wanna quit.."

Silence

It's the only thing happened after what I said.

Not a thing can be heard of on the other line from my earpiece.

After long minutes of stillness, I heard a long sigh from Ahjumma.

"I'll talk to you when you're not sick anymo-"

"I'm not sick!"

"Look kid, stop being stubborn and just stick with the plan"

"Fuck this mission! I don't want to do this anymore!"

"What's happening with you kid? You're doing this for a long time already!"

"Yeah! And I'm fucking tired of it now! Why can't I decide for my own life now?! Stop controlling me Ahjumma!"

"First of all, I'm not controlling you! I'm just doing what's best for you, to protect you. I don't want you to end up like Jongin."

Again, silence occupied my whole office. Jongin oppa, I don't even know what exactly happened to him. All I know is that he accidentally died from a mission. Same with my parents, the word -- "accidentally"

I feel dumb not knowing anything about my family, my mother, father and Jongin. In my 24 years of existence, they always refuse my question whenever I start asking questions about them. It's like they're hiding something from me. 

"Yeah right, Jongin oppa died and I, her sister doesn't even have the right to know what exactly happened to him. Oh and I think I haven't forgot that it was the same scenario with my parents"

"Kid, I'm just trying to protect you. We are, me and President Kim."

"First, stop calling me kid, Ahjumma. I'm not a kid so stop treating me as one. I deserve to know everything and I also deserve to be happy. And that is to back out from this mission and live with Jennie."

"I'm not letting you do that Y/N"

"Why? Because I  might die 'accidentally' like how my parents and Jongin did?"

"You don't understand Y/N-"

"Then make me understand! Tell me everything I need to know!" I yelled close to tears

I never felt this hurt before. My heart aches, my head aches. I feel like I'm the most stupid person right now. 

Why do they need to hide everything from me? All this years of working for them, isn't that enough for me to earn their trust and let me know what I have to know. 

All those years of doing what they want, don't I deserve to do what I want now?

"Tok.. tok.. tok.."

The argument between me and Ahjumma was cut off when someone knocked on my door. I fixed my self, wiping the tears making sure no one will notice.

I stood up and head for the door composing myself before opening it only to be welcomed by the most gorgeous face that I will never get tired to look at.

"Jagi.." she sweetly said to me and immediately squeezed me into a hug

I don't know what to say, I returned the hug tighter. This helps..

Jennie helps..

How amazing someone can take all the hurt I'm feeling right now?

And they want me to fucking leave this girl?

Nothing in hell can make that happen.

"The audio clip is now out. Get out of there before she herself pushes you away"

The sound from my earpiece made my knees weak.

How can Ahjumma do this?