Reality Sunday [COMPLETED]

Chapter 20

Y/N'sPOV

"The audio clip is now out. Get out of there before she herself pushes you away" 

..The audio clip is now out. Get out of there before she herself pushes you away..

..Get out of there before she herself pushes you away.. 

..she herself pushes you away.. 

It keeps on repeating inside my head...

"Hey baby, you okay?" Jennie said cupping my cheeks waking me up from my thoughts

I wasn't able to speak nor move after hearing what Ahjumma said.

How can she do this? It's like I don't know her anymore. Where's the Ahjumma who's been very supportive in whatever decision I do? Why is she ruining my life right now?

"Look at me, what's happening?" Jennie said, again trying to get my attention

I don't know what to say or to react. I feel like I'm standing on a cliff ready to fall and die instantly. I let out a heavy sigh and looked at Jennie straight through the eyes.

Might as well confess now before the news breaks. Fuck I feel so guilty!

"Jennie.." I started

Not even knowing how to continue and to construct the right words to say to her.

All I did is to hold her cheeks and intently looked at her.

"What is it Y/N? Is there any problem? Tell me.."

Another sigh escaped from my mouth.

"Jen.. look.. uhmm" *sigh*

I was catching my breath as if I ran a mile.

"Calm down okay? Take it slow.."

"Jen j-just.. just always remember that I love you okay? I-i.. I love you so much.." it's the only thing I was able to say

I can see the confused yet happy face of Jennie after I said those words. I just hope I can always make you happy like this Jen..

"Aww~ I love you too Y/N.. But is there anything wrong? You know you can always tell me.."

"There is.. And I-im so sor-"

"Beep.. beep.. beep.."

"Wait babe let me just take this call.." Jennie said fishing her phone out from her pocket

Fuck!

"Ne Manager-nim.. Waeyo?"

It's him, their Manager. Fuck! I know I won't be able to know what they're talking about but my palms started to get sweaty and my heart started to beat faster. 

"W-what? What are you talking about?"

Oh fuck! Please not yet! 

"I-i.. I d-don't know what you're talking about?"

I'm done.. My life is fucking done! I notice her soft sobs fuck she's crying now! What have I done? Fuck sake!

I think the call already ended as Jennie removed it from her ear. But what happened next made me fall on my knees. This is the end of me.

"So yeah, to start, I lived and studied in New Zealand before. Uhmm.. I was a party girl.. since you know how teenagers from western countries are. And to be honest with you.. I was.. a bully at school. I always wanted things my way.. Ermm.. Me and my friends made fun of whoever we wanted.."

The audio played from Jennie's phone confirmed what I just did. I'm the best asshole in town. And I just did something that can literally destroy the one I love the most. 

Fuck.

The sound of Jennie's phone falling to the floor echoed throughout the whole room. It's the only thing I could hear very loud and clear. Joined by the soft sobs coming from my precious girl. And it's all because of me. 

What did you do Y/N? What did you fucking do?! Why do you always mess up!

I immediately went closer to Jennie and embraced her in a hug. All she did was to lean on my shoulders and cried her heart out. It's all my fault and my heart just got fucking shredded into pieces.

*crying* "C-can.. can y-you explain t-to me w-what's happening Y/N?" Jennie managed to speak in between sobs as she rose up from my chest and did her best to look at my eyes.

I wanna punch myself for being responsible to what I'm seeing right now.

I wasn't able to utter any word. Just the panting and consecutive sighing only came out from me. But still, she continued looking at my eyes still waiting for an answer.

"D-did you do this Y/N? Fucking talk Y/N you have a mouth!" Jennie yelled at me

I understand why she's acting like this but it really broke my heart to see how hurt and angry she is now. And it's all because of me.

"J-jen.." is the only thing I can say as tears also started to flow out from my eyes

"Jen what?! I told you to fucking explain to me what's happening because you're the only person I told about that thing! Now tell me, am I so fucking dumb for trusting you?"

"N-no Jen.. Please.."

"Fuck Y/N just spill it out!"

"L-look.. I-i can explain.. I know I broke your trust right now b-but.. But I can explain.."

"Then fucking explain!"

I flinched after she yelled at me again. This time, it was more loud and clear.

"I-i.. I will.. B-but I need you to come with me.."

"Come with you? How am I suppose to trust you this time? I don't know Y/N it's ju-"

I kissed her.. I did my best to make her feel that I love her and I didn't meant to hurt her.

She didn't move nor returned my kisses but I understand.

I pulled away and held both her cheeks as I looked straight into her eyes.

"I understand if you hate me right now Jen.. But please.. Please just give me this one.. You know I never wanted to hurt you and I just told you earlier that I.. I love you so much Jen.. Please.."

She didn't answer and continued looking at me. Both faces drenched with tears.

"I promise this time you will know everything.. I will explain to you all the things you need to know about me.. And I will also make sure to fix this mess I made.. But I need you right now Jen.. So please?"