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10. At The Airport

Martha entered the airport lounge, where she would have to wait for Jack and Mickey, apparently, their plane had been delayed so she had to wait.

She sat down and mentally sighed, the past few days had been hectic, to say the least. But she couldn't quite say that she had hated them.

Sure she had looked forward to having a couple of days rest from her work and the Doctor and rest weren't quite known to be a working combination. However, Martha hadn't quite felt as relaxed as she had in the past couple of hours in months.

And to think that she nearly wouldn't have had these days, her boss had insisted, no, practically demanded that she would go with Mickey and Jack to Germany, they had needed a medical specialist or something on the field as if they couldn't find anyone else qualified. Martha was really grateful that both Jack and Mickey had stood up for her and had managed to convince their boss that they didn't need her and that she did deserve some rest after the hectic weeks in UNITs hospital. She was slightly disappointed that she didn't get to spend her first free days in months with her husband but you couldn't get everything you wanted.

She was glad and saddened that she finally got to meet the changed Doctor again after having just met him once. Back on the day they 'met' she had realised that although both Doctors had similar characteristics they had also seemed to be different in some way. Back then she hadn't had enough time to get to know the new Doctor. To be honest, she still hadn't spent that much time with him to get to know him but she had seen enough to notice that there certainly was a difference.

She still loved him, she had never stopped loving him, she had gotten over her feelings for him, but they had never stopped.

She certainly noticed that her feelings actually seemed to be stronger for this new version of him, she suspected that some of the new personality traits that came with this new him influenced this. This new Doctor seemed to be a lot more open. Sure, he had shared some very personal stories with her in the past but he had seemed to hide any emotion like it was some sort of dark secret. While she felt like this new version didn't quite do it that much, but this was just at first glimpse, this new version was quite new to her and she needed more time to figure out just how he was now. On the subject of the memory lock he seemed to be quite open about the fact that he didn't want to explain, he had explicitly said so. Something he never would've done in the past, before he would've just changed the subject and act as if it didn't exist.

Martha could sense that he was very unhappy with some of the things he had done in his previous body and just knew that that memory lock was very high on that list, even though she didn't know a lot about it, what sort of memories it had locked away nor why he had put it there.

Sure she knew that he apparently had made himself forget about their story time and apparently much more that had made him act much more distant. Something about that piece of information made her feel a bit weird, she couldn't really describe the feeling it gave her.

She couldn't think of a reason why he would want to forget memories like that. She could understand wanting to forget some memories, she herself had a lot of memories she sometimes rather forgot. But she also knew that memories made you who you are, whether they were good or bad.

She had a feeling that The Doctor knew this as well and it had been clear that he regretted putting that memory lock there. She suspected that if he hadn't he probably just would've rebuilt it. She just wondered what was bad enough for him to want to forget it, especially considering the burdens he carried

Martha suspected that whatever it was, it wasn't something that horrified him. Obviously, he was embarrassed about having put that memory lock there and didn't want anyone to know about whatever it was. She just had no idea what it could be.