I don't care. (Newtmas AU)

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Third Person.

Thomas was the first one of the two to wake up. He looked over at the blonde, the innocent child like features showing more as he sleeps. His heart fluttered, he wanted nothing more than to keep this boy happy. That is why he knew he had to leave and not return. He didn't want to influence Newt. Newt wanted nothing more than to be like Thomas, and Thomas needed him to be better.

He quickly put his clothes on and left not knowing where he's going or what he is doing. Feeling conflicted and depresses, he loved the boy but knew nothing good would happen with him around, Thomas went to do the only thing he knew how to do when negative emotions occur. Before long he found himself outside of Minho's door. Once again the friend opened the door with alcohol and various drugs "Long time no see" he said with a smirk...

Newt woke up alone... He didn't think much of it as he was slightly hungover. "Maybe he went home or went to get food"he tried to ration with himself. He grabbed his things and headed home. He greeted his parents and his brothers "hey have you seen Thomas I couldn't find him in the morning" he tried to ask. "No dear, we haven't seen him since he left with you."

After hearing that he was beginning to get worried. Newt had the best night of his entire life and he knew that Thomas felt the same. However he started to doubt this. Why on earth would he leave? It literally makes no sense. Newt couldn't let him go, Thomas was the best part of his life. He was going to find Thomas if it was the last thing he did.

~~~~~SEVERLE WEEKS LATER~~~~~

Thomas was back to square one drunk in that special clearing. That was where it all began. He sat by the river contemplating how meaningless his life is. The alcohol made the sad thoughts disappear fast.He laughed to himself as he thought about a cute blonde kid that he used to know. The memories burned in his heart like the alcohol in his throat, it hurt him to a deep extent.Maybe he made a mistake leaving. He now realises he would rather die then be apart from him. Newt could never forgive him so maybe he should die.

Newt tried doing all he could in order to find Thomas. He desperately needed to find his first love. As soon as Thomas left him, his life crumbled. The bullies returned worse than ever, he got beaten up everyday, they told him to kill himself, they said he's too gay to breathe the same air as them. The memories he shared with Thomas made him feel slightly better, until the thought he may never find him struck him then he had a panic attack. Things got so hard the once innocent and clean boy took to the habit of self-harming. with each cut he thought less of Thomas and more of death

Things got bad for the both of them. They were self-destructing. After finding extreme happiness with each other the reality of their harsh and cruel lives hit them harder then it had before. Thomas just couldn't get happy he started doing more serious drugs like LSD and MDMA it was only time before he started doing Cocaine and Heroine. The blonde had cuts from his shoulders to his wrists from his thighs to his ankles. Each day was a harder struggle for the two.