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Rescue

Cheryl's pov

This has been hell. Worse the hell. Is there a place deeper then hell. It's not the labor. Well I️t is. But it's the words. That are being shoved into my mind. That I'm dirty, wrong, sinning. They are saying I'm going to hell but honestly hell is probably better then the sisters of quiet mercy. Quiet mercy?! Show me some fucking mercy. I️n the Morning I'm woken up at 6am. I'm given some sort of shot that has made huge bruises on my arm, then I️ am given some disgusting food which I️ refuse to touch. I'm then taken to what they call 'therapy phase one' where I'm spoken too about my 'incorrect thoughts'. At my first session I️ refused to speak. So I️ was whipped and hit like an animal. Now I️ just answer simple yes and no's. I️ hate lying because I️ know my feeling aren't wrong. I'm then forced to walk about a mile to a barn where and more bags of who knows what from one side to their other. I️ don't even know what's in these bags. Pig food? After the work in the barn it's around 8pm. I'm given some gross food which again I️ will not eat, then I️ am taken to church where I️ 'pray' for a few hours. I'm not religious. Well I️ am I️ believe in God just not the God they want me to believe in. At midnight I'm taken to my 'room'. More like a prison cell. And locked in until the next day. I've been to one movie night since my arrival Saturday. Tuesday night. I️ got out of the barn early, but that movie was the worst things I've ever seen. It destroyed me and make me feel like shit. I️ find during that time I️ thought about people back home. Kevin frequently. How did he come out and everything went find and I'm stuck like this. I️ think about Toni the most. God I️ miss her. I️ hope she's coming. I️ can't lose faith she's coming.
Today is Thursday and I️t feels like I've been here forever. At around 6:30pm I'm told to leave the barn to get washed for movie night. I️ have to shower in this disgusting shower that after I️ leave I️ feel even dirtier. I️ put on my shoes and walk to the screening room.
I️ take my seat towards the back. I️ never talk to the other kids. We don't want to talk. I️ begin to cry even before the movie is played. Just thinking that I️ will be locked here until I'm eighteen. Or even longer. The movie starts and it's something about cheerleaders. I️ don't pay attention and instead lose myself in my head. Thinking about Toni. The kisses we shared. Her audition for the Vixens. The way she protects me. The way she makes me feel. More tears flow from my eyes. I️ hear the words "Cheryl" from a distance. I️t sounds like her voice. I️ hate when my mind tricks me like this "Cheryl" I️ hear again and I️ look with just the slightest bit of hope that she's there. It's in my head. It's in my head. I'm stuck. I'm lost. I'm wrong. I️ lost everyone. Everything. Everything that mattered to me. I️ hear "CHERYL" Loudly and turn my head. It's her. It's her. "Cheryl are you in here" I️ get up
"toni" I️ say surprised yet I'm so happy on the inside
"We came to rescue you"
We. More people cared
"You did?"
She nods a bit and I️ walk over and stumble into a hug. I'm weak since I️ haven't eaten and all I've had was water. We pull away and she takes my face in her hands and kisses me. I️ move my hands to her waist. I'm kissing her. I'm with her. I'm not alone. I'm not trapped. I️'m not hopeless anymore.
"Toni" I️ hear a familiar voice say
We pull apart. It's Veronica
"There's a bunch of nuns coming we have to go"
We run out and run through the halls. I️ don't let our hands part the whole time. We make I️t to the tunnel and climb up when I️ see Kevin waiting
"Come on come on" he says
We all climb out and Toni lets go if my hand to shut the door
Veronica signals me to keep running but not without Toni. I️ can't. Toni gets the door shut and puts the crowbar in the handles to lock I️t. She grabs my hand and the four of us run until we reach the car. Free. I'm free
I️ put my head on Toni's shoulder the whole way home. She holds my hand and I'm starting to feel safe.
The worst of it is over
I️t can only go up from here