|1|The Outcast《tom holland》

Eleven; Listening

Everybody stands,
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as she goes by
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Cause they can see the flame
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that's in her eyes
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Watch her when
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she's lighting up the night
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Nobody knows that
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she's a lonely girl
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And it's a lonely world
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But she gon' let it burn,
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baby, burn, baby
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The week went by pretty fast, soon enough saturday was here, the day I was anxiously waiting for to come. All week I kept thinking over and over again if it was a good idea to talk with her, part of me kept saying 'no Bianca she hurt you' the other part said 'she's your mother at the end of the day'.

I ground lightly ass the sunlight by hit my eye, after blinking a couple of times I sat up on my bed and looked around my room for a moment, getting lost in my thoughts before being interrupted by a knock on my door,

" come in " my father walked in, still in his pajamas, consisting of grey sweatpants and a AC/DC shirt,

"Morning sunshine, how'd you sleep",
I patted the space next to on my bed, motioning for him to sit down, after he made himself comfortable, I let out a sigh,

" honestly, I didn't sleep well, too much on my mind"

"Like"

"I'm talking with her tonight", I felt my Pop's tensed beside me, " really?", I let out a breath as I brought my knees to my chest, "yeah, but I don't know if what I'm doing is right, but there's only one way to find out"

My father wrapped an arm around my shoulder, bringing my body next to his, "whatever you want to do, I'll be here supporting you okay? If you want to talk to her then go ahead I won't stop you", he kissed the side of my head, I felt my body relax as he didn't argue with me over deciding to talk with Hailey.

" you're the best you know"

"I know", I chuckled softly as he kissed my head again, " come on sunshine, let's go get something to eat, I'm starving".

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I sat down on the love seat in our living, I kept glancing at the clock on the wall near the kitchen, she should be here any minute. I kept rubbing my hands on my jeans due to how sweaty they were getting, breath Bianca just breath. I closed my eyes as I tried to focus on calming down, I have to go through this, it was either now or never.

A knock at the door made my nerves grow, I stood up, slowly making my way to the front door, a hand on my shoulder stopped me before reaching the door, I glanced behind me to find my father staring down at me, "if at any point you feel uncomfortable, don't think twice about calling me okay?", I gave him a smile as I turned around to open the door.

There she stood, anxiously staring at us, I took a deep breath as I opened the door wider, " hey come on in".

As she walked in, she and my father gave each a small smile, "I'll be in the other room if you guys need anything", I gave my father a nod as I led her to the living room.

We sat down, staying quiet for a moment, as no one new exactly where to start,

" thank you for giving me a chance" Hailey spoke up first, she kept fiddling with her hands, "Yeah, after a lot of thinking, I thought this might be a good idea"

"Where do you want me to start?"

"From the beginning"

She took a deep breath as she stared off, like she was thinking deeply into how she was going to say her words, "At the beginning of our marriage between your father and I, I was madly in love with him. Your father and I had a special connection, we were both madly in love with each other and at the time that you were born, we were both extremely happy. Soon enough years past and slowly I began to fall out of love. It first started off with me being distant with him and soon I began to see people behind his back. Believe me I deeply regret doing those things behind his back but I was young and I had necessities. I soon met this guy and I felt like he could treat me a way no other can. I finally came to a decision and told your father that I wanted to divorce him. Your father didn't take it well because I told him that I was going to take you with me. We began to argue and he kept saying that I couldn't take his little girl away from him", she stared down at her trembling hands, letting out small sobs as the memory flashed through her mind,

I stared down at my hands then up to a picture of my father and I on the wall, " you were going to take me away from him?", she looked at me to with regret in her eyes, she gave me a small nod.

" so I did what thought was best for both you and him, I packed my things and I left him without saying another word. Soon the divorce papers came with his signature on and he had the full custody of you. At the time I was happy that you weren't with me, but soon I began to regret. Month pass and soon I was married to the man that I left your father for. I was actually happy and I forgot about you and your father. I sound like the worst person but you have to understand that if did stay your father and I wouldn't have been happy".

I stay quiet as I processed everything she just told me, she left because she was in love with my father anymore, but what about me? Did she not love me anymore?, "why did you finally come back?" I questioned her in the softest voice possible. She inhaled a deep breath as she looked up, finally making eye contact with me,

"Life can cruel sometimes. We do things without thinking about the consequences that they have. Walking away from you and your father, abandoning my own daughter to pursue a man who made me happy. My worst decision was leaving you guys behind and maybe that's why karma came back to me" she reached for my hand, glancing up at me for permission, I gave her a small nod as she grabbed my hand in hers, rubbing her thumb on the palm of my hand,

"I'm not going to say this for you to feel pity for me and to forgive me, I'm saying this because in the end I don't want to have the guilt of my daughter thinking that I never loved her" I stared at her confused as to where she was going with this, she took a deep breath before staring up into my hazel eyes,

"A couple of months ago I began to feel very sick and breathing became a hard thing for me. I was letting it pass because I thought it wasn't something major, soon the coughing up blood came. That's when I began to worry, so I went to the doctor to go check up and I got results back" she choked on her words as she began to cry, I squeezed her hand, giving her in a way some confidence to continue.

In all honesty, I'm scared as shit as to what she might say next, I felt tears prick at the corner of my eyes as I anxiously waited for her to continue, she took a deep breath, wiping her tears she continued, "turns out I have lung cancer",

I stared down at our tangled hands, lung cancer, so does that mean...No no that can't happen, " is there a cure, medicine?", she stared at me with sadness in her eyes, that moment I felt my heart break, No please it can't be true, she shook her head, softly whispering,

"I'm dying baby".