𝘵𝘢𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥 • 𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯

twenty four

Ethan knows what he must do.

Living without his one true love wouldn't be living at all. His happiness is wherever Grayson is, his happiness is having him tucked in his arms.

Forever.

The thought of leaving him, or being without him makes his heart ache and hurt more than anything ever has. He wants to spend his whole life and afterlife with him, and he'll gladly bite the bullet if it meant that would become his reality.

He sits at the edge of his lovers bed lost in his thoughts before he makes up his mind. He scoops up the scattered white pills and holds them in his palm, he smiles looking down at the white orbs contrasting against his warm skin.

Grayson leans against his bed frame watching him nervously. He feels guilt deep down in his gut at the sight of him contemplating his own life, as much as he wants to change his mind he knows he can't. He tried to talk Ethan out of his decision countless times, as soon as he brought up the idea Grayson denounced it. He told Ethan he wasn't worth it, he told him to leave, he told him to break up with him and save himself but Ethan wouldn't budge.

Ethan scoots next to him, taking a deep breath he gives Grayson a warm smile, earning a sad one in return. Ethan takes his hand, and laces their fingers together before leaning in and connecting their lips. His hand rises to his face as his fingers glide on Grayson's cheek. He caresses his skin softly like it's the last time he'll ever be able to feel him. Wrapping his arms around his body he looks into his eyes and presses a kiss onto his lips one last time.

He turns his head and stares down at his hand before tossing the handful of pills into his mouth and taking a quick swig of water. The same pills meant to keep him alive travel down his throat to kill him slowly. He swallows them all before setting down the empty glass and curling into a ball, he starts to space out as exhaustion suddenly hits him.

Grayson scoots next to him and pulls the covers over his body, he tucks him in tight before hugging him and rocking him slowly. Ethan closes his eyes, letting out a calming sigh, his body relaxes as Grayson leans down and presses a soft kiss on his forehead.

Grayson looks down at his lover dying in arms. He feels tears build up in his eyes at the sight.

Out of all the days they've spent together, he would've never guessed this is how things would turn out. As time past and sunny days turned into late nights they both realized how much they craved each others love.

It's all ending now.

"I-I'm so sorry." Grayson cries squeezing his arms around him and pecking small kisses on the side of his face.

"It's okay." Ethan whispers weakly as his lips curve into a small smile.

"All I ever wanted was to feel loved by someone." He says quietly shutting his eyes. Grayson sniffles holding him tight as tears roll down his face.

"T-Thank you for loving me." He mumbles grabbing Grayson's hand and pressing a kiss onto the back of it. He holds it over his heart squeezing his palm tight before his pupils dilate and his grip softens.

He's gone.

Grayson closes his eyes while shedding tears rapidly. He buries his face in the crook of Ethan's neck and sobs against his skin.

"I'm so sorry."

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It's bittersweet having to tell your parents your dead. It's something neither of them would have ever expected, not even in their wildest dreams. No parent would ever want to hear those words, but here they are preparing to tell them about their mortality.