A DREAM OF LOVE- completed

CHAPTER 5: CRUSH

CHAPTER 5: CRUSH

Everybody knows that in some point in life will come a thing of admiring or liking someone.  It’s a special feeling that can tickle once heart. In my life, I had my first crush when I was in 4th grade.  He was the boy in my class who was intelligent, good-looking, friendly and popular. He has these smile that can melt my heart and had a very manly voice that can catch my attention.  But when I transferred into another school on my 5th grade I never saw him again. And I start having crush with the boy I spent a lot of time with since I met him. The boy next door Andhy Conner. On that day onwards I never stop admiring him until now. I could never explain why and how or what started it. It just pops out of the bloom. He was like my lifetime crush.

That same year I remember asking Andhy’s little brother to stole a latest picture of Andhy on their family album.  But first I was planning to do it by myself since I can go in and out of their house. But Andhy would notice me steeling it and would probably ask me why I needed a picture of him. That would be so embarrassing that I couldn’t answer his question.  And when his little brother successfully done it and gave it to me I run to the house and into my room. I stared at the picture with my heart pounding and I fantasized.

It was taken on his graduation day (elementary).  I put it in one of my notebook and I looked for a frame. And when I can’t find one I improvised. I saw my father’s old address book with the size of a regular picture. It has a very hard cover and has a cool design on the cover. It was made of jeans cloth and with an accent of a little brown belt with a gold buckle on the upper top. I thought this would be the perfect frame of Andhy’s picture and mine. So I tore the papers inside and throw it in the trash and I paste Andhy’s picture on the right side and mine on the left.  And I put stickers on the cover saying confidential, top secret and private. I put it on a safe place that nobody can see and when I go to sleep I put it under my pillow and hoped for seeing Andhy in my dreams.

In school when me and my friends gather around and talked about our crushes we giggle a lot and tease each other. Every end of the year the autograph notebook was so popular. In that notebook it tells all about a person even your crush, your first love, first kiss, most happiness and embarrassing moment, stuff like that. For others not to know whom our crush were we think of an appropriate code name or alias. Some uses cartoon characters like Mickey Mouse, Garfield, Snoopy and others. Some uses Honey or Sweetheart or Darling what so ever. Mine was a little bit different.  I counted the letters of Andhy’s name and his last name and I came up with 5-6. So my code name for him was Mr. 5-6. My friends and I also love to play the compatibility games. FLAMES for instance, HOPE, name letter adder and so on. My favorite was FLAMES. Even though I knew what will come up I still do it over and over again. I never get tired of playing it.

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Since Andhy knew that I have a crush on him he spends much less time with me and came to the time that he never see me anymore nor talk to me about anything. Our friendship some what goes to drain… I don’t know how he knew it I didn’t tell him that would be embarrassing for me. Maybe he saw through my actions. I’m not that showy when I was with him but I do blush from time to time. It was sad not spending time with him anymore. I did miss him so much. I miss spending time with him playing board games, playing card games or just talking freely. One thing that lessens our friendship was being in separate school.  We hardly see each other.

Since Andhy wasavoiding me I spend my time with Lana, my new friend and classmate who happen to be my neighbor also. At the back of my grandparents house was a vacant lot then a road then Lana’s house. She was just living at the other street. We became best friends telling everything to each other from nonsense to jokes, to serious ones to secrets. She knows all about my feelings about Andhy. Luckily we were still best friends until now.

Lana and I spend a lot of time at my place listening to the music, do homework and we talked for hours. And when we heard a vehicle pulled over at Andhy’s house we rush to the front window and hope for Andhy to be the one going out of the vehicle. When he was, my heart beats was so fast that just seeing him from a distance makes me happy. It was the same thing when I was outside of the house and saw him I will rush to the bushes and hide. I’ll peek from it and stole a glimpse. We sometimes bump to each other from time to time and he will just forced a smile and then look elsewhere. I don’t ask much and with that forced smile it can turn me up side down.