his smile // na jaemin

-five-다섯-

After classes today, he was unexpectedly walking towards me

I looked behind me, thinking that he was coming for someone else

But no one was behind me

He was going to talk to me.

"Hey Haerin.. Can I ask you for advice?"
He nervously told me as he rubbed his nape.

I looked at my bag blankly, not wanting to make eye contact

But thoughts were filling through my head

I nodded at him, still facing my bag

I noticed him becoming moving around, anxious

My palms started getting sweaty

Anticipating what he was about to say

Silence filled the room until he decided to finally speak.

"You see, I like someone. And, I need help getting close to her. And you're really close to her so-"

So now he only talks to me when he needs me?

Ok then.

"Who is it? I'll do it."

I answered him with no emotion, still looking at my bag.

He took quite awhile before answering, so I decided to look into his eyes.

I looked at him seriously

While I did so, I felt tears slowly forming

But i didn't care anymore.

If seeing me frowning doesn't bother him,

if forgetting about my existence apart from now doesn't bother him,

Then a few tears surely wont.

"It's.. Your bestfriend, Soona."

Damn it.

i was planning on just not giving a damn about what he would say.

No reaction, no nothing.

But instead

I cried out the fucking niagara falls.