his smile // na jaemin

-six-여셧-

Jaemin looked worried

I doubt he really was though.

He started comforting me-

well, tried to comfort me

Him trying to comfort me only made it worse though.

As if it would make the situation better, jaemin.

"Haerin. I'm really sorry."

"Yes, I know that you feel like you've been forgotten."

"But it's better this way until you completely move on."

"Because staying close to me will only hurt you even more."

Jaemin told me as he patted my back

"After 7 long and painful months, you only start talking to me just to get advice about Soona."

"You're a monster, Jaemin."

I didn't mean that.

You're anything but a monster.

"I hate you so much."

I don't hate you for fuck sake.

I love you so much.

So much more than you did.

I grabbed his shirt and pulled his towards me

Anger and regret flushing through me

"Why the fuck do I still love a monster who mentally killed me? Why?!"

I sobbed and cried infront of him.

I fell to my knees and cried, crouching

It's been awhile since I've let my tears out.

He's never seen this side of me crying this hard before

But who cares

Everyone will judge you one way or another.

might as well fall from the heavens and become your angel.

But of course

That's not happening anytime soon.