Mute Emma

Chapter Eleven

Chapter Eleven 

Emma's Pov

After I got home last night I did nothing but cry before I fell asleep so I had to force myself awake so I could shower and eat before school started. 

Today is Thursday and I will most likely get detention tomorrow for skipping without reason but that's fine. 

Getting out of bed I walked into my bathroom and stripped out of my work clothes from yesterday and left them on the floor before hopping into the shower. 

Have you ever felt numb like you overthink things that can be apart of anxiety but at the same time you don't care? You don't have a feeling towards it because that's how I feel. 

Numb

I don't have an emotion 

My mindset is I don't care

And I know I should be worried but the thing is I just don't care and I like that.

Hopping out of the shower I go into my room and put on undergarments and a black crop top that says 'DON'T CARE NEVER DID" in white bold letters and blue ripped jeans with the black boots that I always wear because tennis shoes just aren't that comfortable. 

I also grab my XXXTENTACION hoodie and backpack along with my phone before walking downstairs. 

I have three cars, my blue Chevy which I can't drive because of vandalism. 

My 2014 blue jeep wrangler with blue rims and my skyline Nissan r35 gtr. I decided to go with my GTR until I can do something about my truck, not that I have a choice cause I need to change tires on my jeep. 

Not caring for food at this point I got into my car and rev it which most definitely woke up Cameron, But I don't even feel bad.

 I plug my phone into the aux and blast Machine Gun Kelly 'the break up' on repeat for my five-minute drive to school. 

As I pulled in my favorite part started so I didn't bother rolling my windows up I just blasted the song 

I wish that I loved you

Or that I cared

Or that I'd even give a damn if you were here

But you're gone so it's fuck you

I'm a player

I am everything that you wanted but you're scared

People stared but guess what I don't care. I continued jamming out to the rest of the song until I was rudely interrupted. 

"Hey what's up," a males voice said "what do you want Jacob," I asked without looking over at him.

"I just wanted to see if you were okay after that girl caused a scene at the diner yesterday," he said not even looking concerned in the slightest.

"doesn't seem like it," I told him honestly "I just think it would be better if we weren't friends," he told me looking over at his group of friends.

"no one said we were friends in the first place," I said, rolling my eyes and grabbing my backpack before rolling up my window and turning my car off before getting out and immediately locking my car.

I didn't give him another chance to talk because I simply just made my way to the back of the school leaving him standing beside my car. He said he came over to see if I was okay after Adina caused a scene but it was his dumb ass friends who started it. 

He seemed to care about the fact that people had vandalized my truck and on top of it he knows paul did it. 

Eventually, school started and I had to go to my first class where I revived a Saturday detention because I miss too many school days without an excuse.

But other than that school went by extremely slowly today. I saw Jacob and his friends But they all left me alone which I'm thankful for.

A/n: edited