Don't make me go back

chapter 10-Annmaries p.o.v

-Annemarie's P.O.V-

Right now I'm in my room getting ready to go to the store to buy groceries. I'm going to invite Blake to see if he wants to come. He's been in his office all day. He needs a break. I make my way down stairs to his office and poke my head in. "Blake, I'm going to the store do you want to come?" I ask him.

"Yea." He tells me standing up

"Okay I'll meet you in the car when you're ready." I told him leaving his office and heading to my car.

I made my way to the car I was in there for about 20 minutes before Blake came in. " You take more time than me getting ready and I'm a girl." I told him backing out the garage. He just nodded his head.

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"What do you want to get?" I asked Blake while grabbing a shopping cart.

"Well whatever the house needs,"

"C'mon Blake at least get something. Act like you're a little boy who wants to buy the whole store," I told him going to the candy isle. "Whatever, you say boss," he said fake saluting which caused me to roll my eyes.

"Okay how bout we get Jolly ranchers, sour patch kids, recess, pickles, Snapple's, Arizona teas', and Mexican candy" (A/N Sorry if you think I'm being racist. But if it helps I'm Mexican) he said grabbing everything and putting it in the basket. "Good. Just like that. Get more stuff if you want." I said moving the cart more down the isle. "Of course I can get whatever I want, you're using the pack credit card which belongs to me." he told me in a duhh tone, which caused me to roll my eyes.

Once we got home, some of the pack members helped us put the stuff up.

"Blake we have some important information regarding new pack members," The beta, Nick, said Eyeing me.

"New members seriously, We have more Important stuff going on like how your Luna was forced to leave," Blake all but snapped at Nick which made me cringe for some reason.

"Look Blake you gotta chill. We  all are stressed out about Vanessa leaving, but you still gotta handle the newbies," Nick replied not keeping his eyes off me, which made me feel self conscious.

"Alright,"  Blake said walking to his office. What's gotten into him. I swear he's bipolar, I mean like he was just fine a couple minutes ago. What's up about Nick too I know he lost his whole family in a rouge attack but damn why was he staring at me like I was a piece if meat.

I still can't believe its been 2 fucking months since they left. Do you know how much I've been crying? I never came out of my room. My best friend is gone. My mate is gone. Everything that was good in my life is gone. My family died in a rouge attack. My sister died of leukemia. My brother killed him self. Everyone I love is gone. Love is just a feeling you have toward someone. Love brings pain. Love is just another word for pain. 

I had to stop living like the way I was living. I needed to come out of my room and do at least something with my life. I've lost a lot of weight these past 2 months. I look like a skeleton. My face is pale, I have bags under my eyes, my eyes are dark as hell. Blake takes care of me though. He makes sure I'm alive he said and I quote 'I just want to make sure you're alive and all, don't want you dying on me now'

He tells me to eat but I refuse. Everytime I say no he uses his alpha voice. Which only makes things worse. I've grown to like him like a brother kind of. He's always sulking too. He always put on this façade in front of the pack. They can tell that he's not happy though.

Everytime I walk by Vanessa's room he's crying uncontrollably In there. Of course being the good person I am, I go and help him. We never bring it up though, whenever he cries, we just sit there holding each other until he stops crying.

Everyone's done unpacking the food in the kitchen. I walk by Vanessa's room and he's crying again. I'm too tired to help him so I walk to the next door which is my room and get ready for bed. Slumber is taking over me, and all I hear is mine and Blakes combine sobbing and those words repeating in my head.

Everyone I love left me alone.

Everyone I love left not a care in the world.

Love is just a feeling

Love brings pain.

Love is a another word for pain.

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SO WHAT DO YOU THINK??? VANESSA'S P.O.V IS NEXT. GUYS I STILL NEED A CAST.

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