Don't make me go back

chapter 9- Blakes pov

-Blake's point of view-

DEAR BLAKE,

I'm sorry I have to leave. Remember that I will always love you. You have to be strong for the pack. Help them through this. Try to move on. Try to love someone else, while I'm gone. I will always be with you in your heart. I remember when we snuck in the library when it was closed so we could read the book I wanted to finish. Then we got caught and the security guard chased us for 5 blocks. Then he kept calling us hooligans. That was a fun night. Remember when we found a beautiful spot with a waterfall. Just go to that spot when you miss me, who knows maybe I'll find you there one day. If I don't comeback don't be an unhappy person. Nobody needs an unhappy alpha. Just be happy, live your life day by day. You were my first my love and I'm sorry for leaving you baby. I will always love you forever and always. I remember the first time I  realized my human part fell in love with you. It was on the top of your truck. When we were listening to music on my iPod, and looking at the stars. My first thought was 'I can't believe how lucky I am to have fallen for you'.Remember that you will always be my first thought in the morning, and my last thought at night. I don't regret falling in love with you. I don't regret being your mate. Remember today, it was good day. This storm will pass. Enjoy life please for me. Remember that what all I only want is to see you when I'm gone. I want to hear you knock at my door. I want to hear your voice. I will always be miserable without you. I will always cry myself to sleep knowing that I can't be with you. Most importantly I fell in love with you the way you fall asleep slowly then all at once. I love you. Forever and always

-Vanessa

The first time I realized Vanessa was gone was in the morning after our date. I was knocking on her door for like ten minutes. Then I began to get worried so I knocked down the door. When I saw nothing was here, I  thought she moved rooms so checked in all the empty and I couldn't find her. That's when I came back in here and I found the note. When I read it I literally broke down. I cried for like 2 hours straight. It was so bad, even Annmarie had to come in here to help me get situated.

Its been 2 months since she left. I know she told me to move on, but I can't. I can't bring my self to love someone else. I always think of her, my wolf even cries for her still. When we run he just stops and cries. It hurts seeing him like this. I go by the waterfall everyday I smell her scent and follow it, but it gets lost in the middle of the woods. I try my best everyday to find where she's at. I even went to the nearby packs and she's not there. I have like 30 more packs to check, and that's the whole country. That will take up to 2-3 years to finish. She might have moved on by then.

Annmarie is worse than me. She's always in her room sobbing. She doesn't eat anything. She even got thinner. Not the pretty thin either, you can see her bones. The other day she came down in a crop top and you could see her rib cage. She's all pale now. She only eats when I use my alpha voice. When I do use my alpha voice she cries even harder. I love her now like my little sister. I feel like she's part of my family.

We keep searching for her, Annmarie and I, we have a few clues but we always end up in the heart if the country. I'm restless now. I never get much sleep. I'm still a happy person like Vanessa told me to be, buts its all fake. All I wanna do all day is cry. I know I sound like a wuss but I miss my soul mate.

-FLASH BACK-

"Blake what are we doing here," Vanessa said as we were currently sneaking in the library. "You said you wanted to finish that book you really wanted to read," I said smirking at her.

"We can get caught are you stupid or something." she said glaring at me

"No I'm not stupid." I told her walking In the library.

"We might get-

"What are you two doing here the library is closed." a security guard yelled running after us

"RUN!!!" we both yelled at the same time as we ran out the library. After the security guard stopped chasing us and calling us names we stopped, and bursted out laughing.

"That was fun I got to admit." she said holding her stomach from laughing so hard

"Duhh." I said. I think I'm falling for her and hard. Bo wait scratch that i already did fall for her. I'm in love with her foreal this time.

-END OF FLASHBACK-

"Blake it's time for dinner." A soft voice told me from the door.

"Okay." I told Annmarie as I walked up to her

"Are you having dinner too?" I asked her while closing my door.

"Yea." she said as I smiled at her. I'm proud of her finally eating.

"Good." I replied as I took a seat at the dinning table as Annmarie took a seat across from me. It was only Annmarie and I since the rest of the pack are out having dinner with their mates or camping. "So how've you been?" I asked taking a bit from my steak. "Hanging on." she sighed taking a small bite from her steak.

"What about you, how are you?" she asked taking bigger bites of steak. "Better, I'm glad your eating." I told her pointing at her food. "Yea me too. I was getting too thin. I mean I want to loose weight. But I don't wanna see my bones that's just disgusting." she said shuddering. Which caused me to chuckle "Good."

"What do you think they're doing now?" I asked her. "From the letter I got from Zack it said they HAD to leave. So most likely they are miserable as hell." she said and I nodded. "Probably. Vanessa is probably fighting one of them." I said. "Yea probably" she said cry, so I went and hugged her "Its okay lil sis. We are goona find them." I told her reassuringly. She just nodded.

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WHO DO YOU THINK SHOULD FIND SOMEONE ELSE: BLAKE OR ANNMARIE

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