In Love With My Best friend (boyxboy)

More Than That.

Ꮳhapter one.

Aaron's POV

I was on my way to school using the usual routine, I'm 16 and I have plenty of friends but only one of them I care about. Zach. He's is tall and well fit, he has muscles, a car - which we don't use to go to school with, since school literally is only 5 minutes away - he has everything and he just turned 17. He's my best friend and I love him, maybe even more than just like a friend, but I could never tell him that, he is straight and I'm gay for him.

I've never looked at guys this way before, and since I've started having feelings for him - a year ago - I've never looked at girls like this either. It's like, if I can't have him, I don't want anybody at all.

I was on my way to Zach's house so we could go to school together. We always go together, it has become a routine for us.

I saw him waiting for me at his front door sitting on the steps. he waved when he saw me and a smile crept in on his face, but in in a sweet way. Everything he did was sweet, sexy, hot, lovable etc.

Okay focus Aaron, focus, we don't want another 'incident' in public now do we?

"Hey," I greeted and we started walking.

I wasn't usually this silent, but I had been starting to dream about him which made me want him more. I wanted to hold his hands and kiss him everywhere. I wanna mark him by leaving a hickey on his neck so everyone could see it and stay away. Ok I know I sound like a possessive person, but I just love him so much.

Yes, you heard me, I love him, I really do. He is the nicest person I know, and if I can't see myself with other people, then I am on the level of love, not care about, not like, but love. Of course I do care and like him, but love is a stronger word to describe how I feel about him.

"Something wrong? You seem... Low" he asked trying to look me in the eyes. Of course he noticed, I mean I was a happy type of person, not a sad and negative person and Zach knew me well enough to see that something was wrong.

"Just a fight at home again with my little brother..." I lied. I really hope he didn't notice me lying, yes he knew me that well. but he could also see if I didn't wanted to talk about it, I think that's the real reason he didn't ask for more info.

"So Dylan and some of the other guys are going to a 'get-together' with a few from our class, do you wanna join? Cause I don't wanna go without you" he stated.

Aw, he didn't want to go without me? Do you see why I love him?

"Hmm, I don't really feel like it, but I don't wanna keep you away" I said as we reached the school. We walked to our lockers which luckily for us only were three lockers away from each other.

"But you will be keeping me away if you don't come" he whined, and emphasizing the word 'will'.

"You know how bad I am with people when I'm in a bad mood" I said to him hoping he would get the hint.

Of course I wanted to join the party but I can't be in public with Zach anymore. Dylan - a close friend to Zach - almost found out when he saw me staring at him. I managed to make up a good lie which made him back off a bit, but I can't keep myself from doing anything stupid, that's also why I've been avoiding Zach a lot in school. I couldn't avoid him when we were on our way to school together cause he would find out, but I managed to just look 'popular' in school so he thought I was actually busy. But in reality I was just with a lot of people I hate, Yep, I was that pathetic, I was hiding from the guy I love. But it was for a good reason, I don't wanna loose him as a friend.

For a year entirely I've been telling myself, that my love toward him will disappear, and that it's more important to keep him as a friend, than loose him when telling the truth.