MerAdd Oneshots

Since when have we ever been friends?

"Hey Addison" Meredith greets me early one morning, with a smile on her face and a coffee in her hand "here ya go. I picked it up for you when I got mine"

It was perhaps the most random thing to ever happen to me. Meredith and I didn't talk often, we weren't very friendly towards one another and we only ever interacted when she was on my service.

"Are you on my service today, Grey?" I ask, thinking this was a bribe so she could assist me in surgery.

"No, I'm with Callie this week" she smiles "it's just a favour for a friend?"

"Since when have we ever been friends?" I deadpan, looking at her with my eyebrows raised to Jesus. Nothing about this whole situation made any sense. Nothing about Meredith ever really made sense.

"Hey" she puts her hands up in surrender "I'm just trying to be nice" and just like that, she's turning on her heels to go about her day with a smile.

I drank the coffee.

~

Later on that day, I felt bad about immediately jumping to conclusions about Meredith and her ulterior motive coffee. She was probably just trying to be genuine friends with me and i acted like a bitch.

"Hey Meredith?" I ask her, catching her in the elevator. She held the door for me and I slid into the, save for Meredith, empty elevator. "I'm sorry for being so rude this morning, it was nice of you to bring me coffee" I said sincerely, perhaps the only sincere thing I'd ever said to Meredith Grey.

"Don't worry about it" she shrugs nonchalantly "if you want, we can go to Joe's tonight for drinks? Bury the hatchet and start being friends" she suggests with a charismatic smile.

"Why not" I reply "sounds like it'll be fun!"

~

I don't know how it happened, and I don't know why. All I know is one second we were fixing our make up in the bathroom and the next my lips were on hers.

We were both stone cold sober, we had barely touched our drinks so I knew what was happening wasn't some drunken impulse. Whatever it was, the fire in my stomach and the way my heart pounded against my ribs told me this was real. Whatever this was.

Breathless and dazed, I pulled away to look at her. With my lipstick smeared all over her lips and her hair mussed up, Meredith Grey looked absolutely breath taking.

And it terrified me.

"We shouldn't be doing this" I say, unsure of what I was even thinking. As much as I wanted it, and Jesus did I want it, I didn't know why.

"Why not?" She murmured, backing me against the wall and kissing slow, lingering kisses down my neck. Shivers raced down my spine, and I could vaguely hear myself let out a small sigh that I'd deny to death later.

"Because I'm not gay" I gasp out, as she bites down on my collarbone. Fuck, it felt so good, everything about her touching me, pressed up against me. It felt like nothing I'd ever experienced, I doubted I'd ever feel this way again.

"Neither am I"

~

The next day, I avoided her. I didn't know what I was supposed to say, we went from casual coworkers to hooking up in Joe's bathroom (and her car. And her bed. And her shower. And her bed again). In the light of day, I was scared and unsure.

"Addison!" She greeted me happily, and I tried not to look as terrified as I felt. I didn't know if she'd expect a relationship or if it was a one night thing or if she was now obsessed with me. I didn't know a damn thing.

"Meredith" I said, not looking up from the chart I was working on. I couldn't look her in the eyes and not remember how she touched me, or how I liked it.

"We need to talk" she informs me, which relieves me and makes me even more nervous all at once "would you mind meeting me for lunch? We can clear the air"

I just nodded.

~

I wasn't sure what to expect when I met her for lunch. I didn't know what she'd say, but she seemed in good spirits all day, whereas I was a wreck. I didn't know how she was so composed, so calm, after everything that happened.

"What do you want to do" she says, the second I sit down. No hello, no greetings, straight to the point. Again, I was equal parts nervous and relieved. At least there would be no awkward small talk.

"I don't know" I reply, gingerly opening my water to take a sip. "I was hoping you'd know what to do"

Meredith just shrugs. "I know what I want, Addie. But what I want doesn't mean shit if it's not what you want. I want you" she's forward, and I like it. I like everything about her. "I want to take you on a date, and I want to peruse a relationship. But if you don't want that, then we can stay friends"

The entire time, she's got a killer poker face. Not one emotion is shown. So, I decide that maybe it's my turn to be a little mysterious too.

"Meredith, we were hardly ever friends"

And with that, I kiss her.