Abandoned - Negan's daughter (Carl Grimes fan fiction)

Chapter Six - Best of me

Song of the chapter - Home by Machine Gun Kelly, X Ambassadors & Bebe Rexha

Blair

"I'm getting used to everything here. It's just so much... Relief, Y'know?" I said as the bright, yellow sun was shining down on me and Carl, in the streets of Alexandria. It was last afternoon and I've spent most of today, with Carl and just usual talking about life and how everything before.

"It takes a bit to get used to. I mean it did for me. I thought that the people here were weak when I arrived." Carl explained to me and I stared at my feet. Even Carl thought these people were weak. I thought I was the only one who was thinking that. I wasn't. I had been warming up to Carl all day and I'm learning a lot about him but he's not learning anything, about me.

"So, You tell me about yourself. We've been talking about me all day." Carl spoke and stared at me. I rolled my eyes and looked up at him. "I like when you talk about yourself." I admitted and he scoffed. I adored the way he tried to get me to talk about myself. He knew he was chatting about himself and I liked that. 

"Come on, please." He said and stared at me for ages, just until I finally gave in. "What would YOU like ME to talk about then?" I asked him and he chuckled slightly. He thought to himself for a minute until he spoke up again. "Your family, your interests." I breathed in a deep breath. This was gonna hurt Carl more than it would hurt me. I needed to lie to him. I didn't want to but I had to. 

"I was brought up in a... Spaced out family. Like none of us were close and my mother. She was addicted to drugs." I spoke. That information I had shared to Carl was the truth and he frowned at the facts. "But I also figured out when I was so young, My mom had been getting beat by my dad. Eventually when the end of the world came. She died and my dad ran away." Carl stared at me and I stared at him too. 

He must've wondered what was running through my head and what have I gone through in the past. Maybe he didn't though. Maybe he thought that I'm okay inside. I'm not though. He needed to know that but I don't want to share my thoughts inside my very own head. I'm only getting to just know Carl. 

"I'm sorry, Blair." He said and stared down at me. I believed that Carl genuinely meant, he was sorry. I smiled sadly at him and he didn't move a muscle. "It's okay Carl." "GUYS!" I heard from not far away from where me and Carl are sitting. We both shot our heads up at the voice and saw Ron. 

He ran over to us and panted, holding onto his knees as he bent over. "Yes?" Carl asked and he finally managed to catch his breath back. He sighed a deep breath and started to speak. "Tonight, there's a party at Deanna's. I don't know why. But... Guess who's getting drunk tonight!" Ron yelled at the top of his voice. I snorted slightly at the thought of even having a party here, in the apocalypse. 

"What? It could be fun." Carl spoke and rolled his eyes at Ron. "You think a party. HERE, is going to be fun?" I asked Carl and I looked up at Ron too. We all exchanged looks for a minute and I stood up. "I don't know if I'll see you guys there but... Have fun if I don't." I walked away from the situation with Carl and Ron. 

I needed to leave that situation with Carl before he asks me anymore questions about my family. As I walked the sunny streets of Alexandria I saw Rick walk past me across the other side of the street. He flashed a smile at me and held his hand up, giving me a gentle wave. I waved back and he walked of to wherever he was going. Rick looked like a gentle man with a caring heart. If he was anything like Carl then I would get along with him too.