Don't you get it?

Chapter 6

Chloe sighed as she looked at her phone screen and saw that it was 2:48. And yet again she couldn't sleep.
After beca had told the girls about the breakup, they watched a movie and chatted, then headed off to bed. Chloe's mind was going a mile a minute. And all her thoughts were consumed by one specific little lady. Beca Mitchell.

Chloe would admit this happened a lot, where she'd be in bed and maybe she'll think about beca sometimes.. but she never took notice of it beca is an important person to her, she just never questioned it. But this is different, this is actually depriving her of sleep. She couldn't help but think about how happy she is that beca is single even though she keeps telling herself the reason is purely for becas sake. Which of course it is too, but there's much more to chloes reasoning. She couldn't stop thinking of the little smirk beca gives her when they lowkey flirt. And the idea of the word flirt, put a million more thoughts into her head.
Wait do we actually flirt?

Then that brought her on to the bellas. Why do they make so many jokes about bloe? What is it that keeps this ever so on going joke going? Do the girls actually see something between her and beca.

She knows the past few weeks have been more intense between them. Like the glances she keeps getting caught with, and that up close and personal training Aubrey had them doing, and how becas face lit up when Chloe gave her the best advice she could.
Chloe shifted in the bed, switching sides once again. The memory of the training session brought back the image of how good beca looked that day. Well beca looks good every day.
Stop it. What is happening? Do I have feelings for her? Oh my god. I have feelings for my best friend. I couldn't.. could I? Jesus I do.

Chloe sits up. The sudden realisation hitting her like a truck. It all makes sense. She didn't hate Jesse- she was jealous of him. The girls made jokes about them because it was clear to them? Why she cared so much for the brunette. Why her nights had been overcome by thoughts involving beca.
Along with this.. the sudden fear struck her. How could she possibly have left herself catch feelings, how did she not even realise until now. Beca can never find out. She could never put the magic that is their friendship in danger. And that scared her too. Suddenly everything was getting very complicated and she knew it was going to be a very long while until she falls asleep. Sleep was off the schedule now.

She headed to the toilet and popped her head into Aubrey's room hoping there might be a slight chance of her being awake.

"Oh my god you're awake" Chloe whispered.

Aubrey laughed as Chloe closed the door. "I'm binging reality tv, of course I'm awake"

Chloe raised her brows. "Reality tv? Did not peg you as a Kardashian kinda gal.."

Aubrey raised her hands and shrugged. "It's my guilty pleasure leave me alone, why are you awake and what brings you to my room"

Chloe sighed. "It's nothing, just can't sleep really."

Aubrey could sense there was something off with the ginger. The way she was sitting fidgeting with sleeves of her jumper. "Chloe you're nervous fidgeting, why?"

Chloe knew Aubrey would notice, after all she's one of Chloe's longest friends. And she knew she could trust her with her life. But she didn't know if she wanted to say or not. "Just have a lot in my mind I guess" she let out a giggle, as she remember beca saying the exact same thing to her and mocking herself for being cliche a couple nights back.

Aubrey gave Chloe the look. The look that says you can trust me and spit it out all in one. Chloe knew the look all too well.

"Okay if I say something crazy, can you not freak out or tell anyone? Aubrey I mean it, I'm so confused and I just need to talk to someone"

Aubrey sensed the urgency and seriousness in chloes voice and she nodded. "Of course Chloe, you know you can tell me anything right?"

Chloe nodded, "um I'm just going to say it because I don't know how to put it so Ehm.." she shook her head and breathed out while sitting herself up. ".. I think I have feelings for beca." She whispered almost inaudibly.

Aubrey's eyes widened. "Did you just say you have feelings for beca, or am I hearing things?" Aubrey asked.

Chloe cringed as she became aware that there's no going back now. "Yeah.."

"Oh my god Chloe! Um hello of course you do, how are you only figuring this out now?" Aubrey squealed.

To say Chloe was confused was an understatement. "What are you talking about?"

Aubrey rolled her eyes. "No offence or anything but you're totally not subtle."

Chloe pushed her. "Aubrey I'm being serious, this is such a big deal. And I can't possibly tell her so I'm just gonna tell you for now" she laughed lightly.

"Why wouldn't you tell her?"

Chloe looked at Aubrey stupidly, as though she asked what colour the sky is. "Are you crazy? Why would I tell her? She just got out of a long term relationship, she's straight, she is not interested and most importantly she's my best friend, and I couldn't possibly risk loosing our friendship.."

Aubrey looked at Chloe. Genuinely shocked that Chloe thinks beca is uninterested in her. Because as someone who witnesses the two, Aubrey is certain beca definitely has something for Chloe. "Um Chloe, she's out of the relationship on good terms, shes never actually said she's straight and you know yourself she definitely doesn't give the 'straight vibe', and I'm not saying anything but she's totally into you if you haven't noticed.."

Chloe chose to ignore what Aubrey said and just shake her head. "No I just can't, I don't want to ruin anything, I'll be fine don't worry I just needed someone to talk to about this because I had no idea what was going on in my head so thank you" Chloe smiled with slight tears in her eyes.

Aubrey smiled to her fragile friend. She hates seeing Chloe like this. Even though she wasn't exactly upset she wasn't herself and that's enough to it's effecting her. "Okay chlo it's up to you, I just want you to be happy and you know you can come to for anything and it's safe with me don't worry."

Chloe was grateful to have yet another person she could also count on to confide it. Even though she'll admit nkw the whole beca thing feels really real after having it out in the opening, and the thoughts of seeing the brunette in the morning was always giving her butterflies. "Thank you you're the best, honestly it means so much I can talk to you. I should try go back to bed and get some sleep.. I'll talk to you tomorrow"

Aubrey hugged her and watched as she left the room. She smiled to herself as she thought about how Chloe finally has come to reality. She knew something was always there. Well they all knew clearly except the actual two.