After that incident ay hindi ko na nakita si Alyxsis sa mga sumunod na klase. Even in the next day after that. Halos one week na siyang wala so this caught our teacher's attention. Tinadtad nila akong ng mga tanong tungkol kay Alyxsis pero iisa lang ang sagot ko sa kanilang lahat.
"I don't know." Tipid kong sabi sa teacher namin.
"Are you sure?" He eyed me na may halong pag-aakusa.
"I don't fucking know where the hell she is! I.... Don't. Know." Halos araw-araw akong kinukulit ng panot na 'to! Ako lang ba ang classmate ni Alyxsis? Out of 40 students, ako lang ba ang tatanungin niya? It's unfair!
"Watch your language Hannah." Mataman akong tinignan ng teacher namin bago siya nagpatuloy sa pagtawag ng pangalan para sa class attendance.
Hindi ko naman talaga alam kung nasaan siya. What I've said to her was just to stay away from me. Hindi ko naman sinabing umabsent siya. But...
Maybe isa ako sa reason kung ba't wala siya? Ewan! Pero baka naman tinatamad lang siyang pumasok? Who knows.
Habang nag lelecture ang teacher namin ay hindi ko mapigilang tignan ang upuan ni Alyxsis. I remember how she looks everytime nagfofocus siya sa mga nonsense lecture ng teachers namin. Or kapag bored siya, she scribbles something in her notebook and she's so into it. The way she plays with her pen in her little hand. Wait...
Namimiss ko ba siya?
Agad kong sinampal ang sarili ko. No! Hindi ko siya namimiss. It's a good thing nga wala siya dito eh. I'm normal again. I'm with my girls everyday, chatting about useless things. Be with Jake without having the guilty feeling. But why? I should be comfortable now. Now that she's out of my sight. Pero ba't ang bigat sa pakiramdam? Everytime I closed my eyes, naaalala ko ang mukha niya 'nung nag-usap kami. Kahit isang segundo ko lang nakita 'yun, I'm sure she was bit... hurt.
"Hannah?"
So what?
Why am I so bothered if she was hurt from what I've said? May mas malala pa nga akong nagawa sa iba. I did not even touch her. Pero ba't ang bigat sa feeling? Na sa tuwing nakikita ako ang upuan niya. Sa tuwing naalala ko ang mukha niya ng panahon na 'yun. Para bang hindi ako makahinga.
"Hey Hannah?"
Or maybe guilty ako?
"Hey bitch!" Niyugyog ako ni Tricia. Napatingin ako sa kanilang apat and I realize na kami nalang pala ang nasa room. Tapos na pala ang klase?
"Kanina ka pa namin tinatawag. Ano bang nagyayari sa'yo?" Pag-aalalang sabi ni Kim.
"Wala lang. Day dreaming?" Tatayo na sana ako ng hinawakan ni Kayla ang magkabilang balikat ko at pilit akong pinaupo.
"Mag-usap nga tayo Hannah. We're so worried about you!" Sabi ni Kayla sa akin.
"Halos one week ka ng balisa babe. Kasama ka nga namin pero 'yang utak mo. Lumilipad sa kung saan." Sabi naman ni Kayla na nakapamewang.
"Even Jake asked us kung may problema ka. He's damn worried about you." Ani ni Kim and Faith nods for agreeing.
"Wala lang 'to girls. Swear! Kung may problema ako, kayo ang unang makakaalam. Its just that..." I miss her? Guilty? I don't know. "wala lang talaga ako sa mood. You know me. Moodswings?" The girls eyed me again but I smiled at them. I can't share this with them. I can't...
"Common, marami ng bunch of losers sa cafeteria. Gutom na ko." Tumayo ako at ng hihilahin ko na sila but Faith stopped me.
"You know we can talk it out, right? No secrets remember?" I held her hand and smiled at her for assurance.
"Yep, Faith. No secrets. Tara na..."
Sorry girls.
***
Maagang natapos si Jake sa practice nila kaya sabay kaming lumabas ng school. As expected, kinausap niya ako if may problema ba talaga ako. He cupped my face and eyed me with his worried eyes.
"Are you really okay?"
Naging balisa nga ba ako for few days? Hindi ko man lang napansin 'yun.
I held his hand that were on my face and smiled at him. "Of course. Moodswings lang talaga babe. Promise!"
"I just got worried, you know? Ayokong malungkot ka."
"Sorry..." for lying. I sighed. He then kissed my temple and smiled at me.
"So... how can I lighten my pricess mood?" He wiggled his eyebrows as he grinned at me. This guy really knows how to make me smile. God, how did I deserve this guy? I felt so lucky for having this guy in my life.
"Ice cream! Strawberry Ice cream!" I said with a glee in my voice. Agad niyang hinawakan ang kamay ko and kissed the back of my palm. He then twists the key and now, our car's ready to go.
"Then, let's go to the Ice Cream Parlor!"
***
Strawberry Ice cream? Pfft. K.Bye XD
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عاطفيةHannah has a perfect life. She got a loving father who provides her everything she wants. Supportive friends who made her school life fun and got a handsome, athletic boyfriend who loves her so much. Until one day, she met a person who changed her w...
