first ending
i was writing down the last words for my letter to seungmin, it's been months. it's already 2018 and wow i'm still alive.
everything is the same between the two of us, the distance has been increasing every minute. he never cared about me anymore, yewoon is there, his friends are there, he has a great family. . . what i do have against them?
i've turned into a nobody and this is all my fault. it's actually pass dismissal and since i got a detention i have to stay for an hour and a half.
"hyungmi, you may go it's going to rain soon." my teacher said and i waved her a goodbye, i went to the lockers and searched for his name.
"kim seungmin, kim seungmin." i repeated his name over and over again, and the pain builds up in my chest. i began to breathe heavily as i found his name.
"found it." i slipped the thin paper into his locker and cried again, the pain is too strong. i clutched on my heart as the rose petals came out of my mouth.
i gathered all the strength left in my body and walked towards the school gates, it was drizzling rain. my house to too far but it's only a straight path, i didn't took a cab since i did not have enough money.
the rain went stronger, i was soaking wet and everything i had as well. my mind kept replaying memories about me and seungmin.
"hyungmi-ah! when we grow up i'm going to marry you."
"seungminie, promise that!"
"of course i promise you, hyungmi."
i chuckled bitterly, where's the promise now seungmin.
"seungmin watch out!"
"phew! that was close thanks for saving me from that car."
"i would never let you go, sungmin."
"neither would i, hyungmi.''
yet i was the one who threw our friendship away, i was the one who cut ties off with the other. i was selfish of myself to think about seungmin's feelings.
"but he is okay without me, i should be alright without him."
i stated, and felt more pain in my chest area, i held my chest but i felt was different. i didn't touch a soaking wet uniform, but rose petals.
i looked at myself and roses were growing from my chest, "it's ending me here."
my vision was blurry and my legs couldn't walk anymore, it's getting hard to breathe. i fell on my knees as i cried and enduring all the pain my body is releasing.
i kept coughing flowers, even my chest is growing flowers.
"goodbye. . . . s-seungㅡ"
my vision went black.
