All these rumors
I don't know what to believe
I don't believe anyone
Not anymore
Everyone is lying to me
Everything is too much
I wish I could just explode
But in a tragically beautiful way
Like getting hit by a car
And dying on impact
Or overdosing on pills
That are usually harmless
While tripping out of my mind
Dying with an image
Of a rainbow elephant
Engraved into my eyes
I hope for something to happen
Too often
But not suicide
I'm much too afraid
And I believe in the light
The light at the end of the tunnel
But this feels like its
Destroying me
Word by word
Lie by lie
What is the truth?
How can I ever know
Why can't I just go
Without ever getting a chance
To say goodbye
c.e.
