Finding my way out ↠ l.h

Chapter 5

Madison's pov

When I woke up I was in my bunk, Michael must of put me here. I decided today was the day I would tell ashton and calum. I got out of bed, got dressed, brushed my teeth, combed my hair, and added three cuts to my stomach.

Much to my dismay I went into the small back room and called ashton into the back room.

"Ashton please come here" I said, tears already brimming my eyes

"What is it M-Dog?" he asked

Without wanting to explain the whole story, I just lifted up my shirt, and showed him my thighs and took off my bracelets. His expression was a mixture of hurt, saddness, and realization.

Without saying another word, ashton took his bracelets off as well. as I looked at his wrists, I saw small white. Scars. old but still there. I then knew at one time ashton knew how I feel now.

"Please honey, stop. I know how hard it is, i knew how good it felt to take the pain away, but after I told all the boys I had there support and that was enough to quit. and whenever I was sad, I just went to them and they comforted me and told me good things. please baby. stop and do that. We will truly always be there for you" he said

I knew he was right, and that was exactly what it was going to do

"Thanks ashy, that's exactly what I'm going to do." I said

After we stayed in eachothers embrace for a while and ashton whispering sweet nothings in my ear I told him it was time for me to tell calum. he simply nodded and told me everything was going to me alright.

"Calum? can you come here?" I yelled into the hall

"Yea hun?" he said walking into the room

Like I did with ashton, I lifted my shirt, showed him my thighs and took off my bracelets. he started sobbing and I did too. he traced over my scars and kissed every one.

"Why? Please honey stop, we all love you" he said

I told him what ashton told me and he greatly agreed.

He kept cradling me and singing to me until he put me in my bunk for the night. I only got up to say goodnight to luke. then got right back to bed. Tomorow I would finally tell luke.