Finding my way out ↠ l.h

Chapter 3

Madison's pov

I was in my bunk just sorting out my pillows and blankets when I heard luke all me for dinner

"Be right there!!" I yelled back

This was going to be a problem, because I also had an eating disorder. just like everything else no one knew this either. And I want it to stay this way.

As I walked into the small dining area I saw the boys already devouring the pizza they had ordered.

"Go ahead Madison, serve ya self" calum said in a funny voice

I gulped hard

"Ok" I said a bit shaky

In the corner of my eye I could see luke looking at me in a funny way. I hope he doesn't think anything. I take a small bite of the pizza already wanting to throw up. I manage to finally shove the whole piece of pizza down my throat and manage to barley hold it down. after the boys finally left the bus to play football outside I ran to the bathroom and made myself puke up everything I had in my stomach.

After I brushed my teeth to get the horrid taste out of my mouth, I opened the door and went outside to hang with the boys

"Hey madison, wanna play?" ashton asked

"Nah I'll just watch" I said back

"K, suit yourself" he said back

After watching for a while i went on my phone. as I was scrolling through twitter, I couldn't help but look at some of the comments. there were some nice ones saying I was pretty, but most were saying that I should die, and that I was a selfish pig. I know this shouldn't bother me, but it does. I run straight into the bathroom and take out my only friend, my razor. I start slashing my stomach until there's an ocean on blood and cuts.

I begin to feel dizzy but drink some water and instantly feel better. I sit on the bathroom floor sobbing my eyes out. Why, why me? The fans are right. I'm fat, worthless, and many more. I walk back into the small lounge and shut the door so I can cry myself to sleep in peace. soon darkness over comes me.

Michaels pov

As i was taking a break from playing football I decided to take a bathroom break. as I walk into the bathroom, I see something that shatters my heart. In the sink was blood and a large bloody blade. at first I don't want to belive it. the only person this could be is madison. I didn't relize I was crying till I felt hot tears hit my hand. I love madison with all my heart. it hurts me to see her like this . what do I do now? ill just go talk to her before I say anything to the boys, especially luke.