When We Held Hands

Chapter 17

I stared at the ring which Lance gave me.

What the fudge is he trying to pertain?

Pinagloloko niya ba ako?

Willing pala siya maging ama ng hindi kanya e.

Pero sana naman hindi siya maging selfish.

Umiling na lang ako at pinaglaruan ang bubbles dito sa bathtub.

Pumikit na lang ako para makapagrelax.

Nagising na lang ako.

Tumayo na ako at lumipat sa shower at tinanggal na ang sabon sa katawan ko.

Pinababa ko ang tubig sa bath tub at nag bihis na.

Pag labas ko ng banyo nagulat ako na natutulog si Justus sa couch ko.

Lumapit ako sakaniya at ginising ko.

He immediately sat up.

Ngumiwi siya sa biglang pag upo.

I smiled at him, "Lipat ka sa kama, Just..."

He smiled. "Sigurado ka? Hindi ka ba matutulog?"

Umiling ako at tinuro ang desk ko.

"I need to check my e-mails."

"Paano kung tapos ka na? Matutulog ka na diba? Dito na lang ako sa couch." Ngumiti nanaman siya.

"You can just build a pillow border." I laughed.

Tumango tango siya, "Alright, I'll sleep."

Tumungo na siya sa kama at gumawa ng harang bago humiga.

My parents is not bothered when Just is sleeping at our house or specifically in my bedroom. Justus really respects me and he will never do such thing.

I smiled at him. He really deserves better.

Umupo na ako at humarap sa laptop ko.

After doing some work ay tumayo na ako at lumabas papuntang rooftop.

Umupo ako sa couch at tinignan ang mga bituin.

Ang ganda talaga nila.

We used to stay up late to star gaze.

Used to...

I sighed and played with the necklace that Justus gave me. I also looked at the distance bracelet that serves that even in so many miles away. We still have each other's backs. Kahit na in the mean time andito siya sa tabi ko, physically.

Justus... He's always there through thick and thin. He comforted me in any possible way. He's not hard to love. But it's hard for me.

Mahal ko pa... na kahit willing siya maging ama at mag stay sa side ni Jane.

Na kahit napakagago niya.

Na kahit nasasaktan ako tuwing inaalagaan niya ang babaeng nakita kong kahalikan niya sa bar.

Na kahit sinisisi ko sarili ko kung bakit ako hindi enough.

Na kahit sinasabi ko sa sarili ko na kailangan ko na mag move on.

Tinanggal ko ang mga nakatakas na luha sa pisngi ko at ngumiti ng hilaw.

Should I continue loving him or should I let go and start to move on?

Aside this personal issue of mine, I want to do something about my close friend and Jane. I need to do something.

Pakielemera na but Robert needs a second chance.

Anak niya yung kinakarga ni Jane, ngayon.

I really need to talk to him.

I got my phone from my pocket and tried dialling his number.

It's 4 am but lets try.

After a few rings he answered.

"Are you okay? May nangyari ba na masama sa'yo?" Bungad niya saakin.

I can't trace any sign of him being sleepy.

"Where are you?" Nag tataka kong tanong.

"Ah, I'm at the office. Just finishing some files." Now I heard him typing.

"Are you going to be done? I want to grab some early coffee and a snack. I also want to talk to you for some serious matter." I'm turning into a CEO, ugh.

He laughed, "I'm almost done, Ms. Jules! Oh! Is Justus with you? Let's bring him!" Masaya niyang sabi.

"We can't. Ako lang nakakaalam ng dapat natin pagusapan." I sounded so serious.

He sighed, "Alright. I'll pick you up, hmmm around 5 am? Would that be okay?"

"Yeah, that sounds great. Drive safely, alright?" I sighed.

"Stop sighing, rant ka lang mamaya saakin. Sige na, I'll finish these." He ended the called.

Tumingin ako ulit sa mga bituin bago bumaba saaking kwarto para mag bihis.

I just wore leggings, sandals, and a gray hoodie.

Tinignan ko si Justus na mahimbing natutulog.

Lumapit ako sakaniya at pinantay ko ang aking mukha sa natutulog niyang mukha.

"Sleep well." I kissed his cheek and stood up.