somebody to you | n.c

ii

"what are you doing here?" he asked me.

"i came here with alex and maia." i mentioned

"oh."

i hated this, all the awkwardness between us just didn't feel right to me at all. it was different before where we would talk and text a lot, but this time it was all small talk.

i looked at him and smiled. i loved this part  because it was a daily reminder for me to tell him that he always tends to make my day.

i didn't know why my actions were like this but i guess i was happy or maybe the fact that i have 80% feelings for him still.

in the corner of my eye i saw adam smirking at me. "you know she got impressed by you nathan." adam said.

my eyes widen has i heard the words that were coming out from adams mouth.

"really?" he asked.

"i mean i guess.. yeah i was amazed by everything and also you're triple axel." i smiled,  i felt my cheeks starting to burn up again.

"thanks."

raf looked at nathan and i carefully, "anna how would you like to join us?" he asked.

me and nathan together in the rink. oh no. i felt like a lot of people were really trying to get nathan and i back together but it was really going to be a tough one.

"come on anna, it's been forever." nathan pleaded.

i didn't want to go, i really didn't but it was worth a shot to let nathan redeem himself.

"sure why not." i sighed.

adam smiled and put his arm around my shoulder "you go get him girl." he whispered in my ear and i rolled my eyes.

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i stepped on ice and began to do a lap around the rink, nathan followed from behind trying to catch up with me.

"anna slow down." he said.

i tried slowing down but i couldn't, my pace was to fast.

"what do you want?" i asked.

i stopped by the side of the rink and he grabbed my hand and pulled me into the middle of the rink.

in the corner of my eye i could tell raf didn't know what was going with the two of us, "nathan! what are you doing." he yelled.

"hold you're horses coach, i just really need to discuss something with anna." nathan yelled back.

raf nodded his head and told us to continue you on.

"okay so why did you need to talk to me?" i asked once more.

he sighed, "i want to talk about us." the topic of him and i was probably the most touchiest thing for me. i wanted no discussion about it but i really want to give a chance on him.

"why? there's nothing to talk about.. end of discussion." i said.

"that night was a set up." he blurted.

i didn't believe it. it couldn't be a set up right there. he was probably trying to hide the real truth, but nathan wasn't like that he would straight up tell the truth whenever.

"i don't believe it." i mumbled.

"you should." he said, by this point him and i were face to face just looking at each other.

"how?" i asked.

"well i always tell the truth and you should know that by now." he said.

"well if it's a situation like this then that's different." i said.

"and?" he was always the last person to say something in an argument and i would always stay silent.

"that's what i thought." he muttered.

"tell me what you got." i sighed.

he grabbed my hand held it and i didn't let go, "Alice set me up with the girl you saw that night." he looked hurt when he was talking about what happened, i felt bad that i just left him instead of explaining the whole thing that night.

"she saw how you and i were so distant the past few days before our one year so she called her friend leah and apparently she planned a date the night of our anniversary, so when Alice told me i flipped out and i just couldn't say no to her so i had too." he confessed.

i nodded my head and understood the whole complete situation.

he continued off with the story, "so when you said you we're going to be late, i had to sneak in the time to go on the forced date with her." he shook his head in frustration, i could tell he felt really guilty about everything. "i told the leah girl i was dating you but she didn't believe me so she just grabbed my hand and held it and i couldn't get out of the grip because she was holding on tight and i was pretty sure she was trying to sabotage me which worked." he said.

everything was coming back to me now and i felt so stupid knowing that i just got away with everything knowing it was all a mistake. i felt so bad that i pretty much ignored nathan for a whole year and if it weren't for me we could of been dating still.

"i was so stupid." i let go of his hand and buried my face in the warm cloth of my sweater.

"no you're not anna. it was only a misunderstanding." he said. "it was all my fault anyways."

"we both did the wrong thing." i chuckled

he smiled at me and i smiled at him back, "come here." he said, has he opened his arms for embrace. i went in for a hug like the good old days.

"i miss this." i whispered.

"i do too." he kissed my forehead and i wanted to cry so bad knowing how the memories were coming back to me.

i was so stupid and dumb that i ignored the person i still truly love. but at this moment i realized that i still liked him..

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"All I wanna be, yeah
all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah
Is somebody to you"

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my own book got me feels 😢
- marinel