New Love

Fortuna

MONDAY, NOVEMBER 3RD

As I entered the bus, whispers emerged and the passengers couldn't help but point and stare at me like I was some type of exotic bird. It happened on Friday yet they're still talking about it. I saved that blaze boy's life but I didn't stay and wait to find out what happened to him. I didn't want to because I still hadn't recovered from the last time I had to go to the E.R. for Valerie.

I sat next to blaze boy again and he said, " Hmm I don't know if your rumors are as scandalous as mine."
"Wow he's not moody for once. Maybe I should save your life more often," I said and he looked at me in awe. Ohh he probably didn't know that I called 911 for him.
"What were you doing at 9 on a Friday night? I thought you'd be partying it up at a jock party or something," he said instead of saying 'thank you'.

"You're welcome. And why do you think that it's my duty to be at a party on a Friday night, instead of being at home to write a AP US History essay?"

"Well you didn't come across as one who'd do that."

"Looks are deceiving," I said.

"So are you in love now," Rociello asked me.
"What do you mean?"
"You've been staring at that muffin like it's going to talk back at you or maybe sing his name," she said while barking and throwing her head back.
"Haha you're so funny," I said blandly.
"Seriously what's up with you."
"A boy."
"Ahhh, isn't there always one."
"Anyways, he finally talked to me-," I said and she interrupted me.
"Wait are you one of those girls who believe that guys should make the first move," she asked me with a surprised look on her face but her eyes read distaste already even though I didn't answer her yet. Right before I could someone poured the school's favorite smango (strawberry mango) smoothie, anger rushed through my veins as it dropped into my bra and made my insides cold.
            I turned around and pushed the girl so hard she fell to the ground. Her little clique rimushed to her and before I could even think or hear what anyone was yelling, I heard my name leave Mrs. Laurent's lips. I knew I was in a shitload of trouble but at this point I just wanted to take a shower and go home.

" You couldn't even wait till next month to disrupt the schools halls again? I warned you before but you won't be getting off that easily. You have detention after school all this week and I will be calling your sister," she said. I had a blank face, I'm used to causing trouble but not this kind. Not the kind that can jeopardize my future. But I wasn't going to beg I promised myself I never would after that night.

"Ok," I said and I guess it made her more upset because she sent me home afterwards.

        As I locked the door, I could sense that something was wrong with the house's atmosphere. Then when I walked closer into the kitchen I heard slow murmur and giggling, my sister's of course. I walked into the kitchen and caught them off guard. I went to get my coconut fried chicken from the fridge to heat it and completely ignored the both of them. Then I heard Delilah clear their throat but I still ignored her.
          "Dakota, why aren't you in school," she asked me as I slammed the microwave door shut. I turned around with my arms crossed across my chest.
" Delilah why aren't you at work," I asked her with an attitude and my left eyebrow arched. My eyes shifted to look at her boy candy and he was as fine as wine in the summertime. He had nice chocolate skin with a nose piercing, goatee and waves. He dressed real nice and seemed like he came out of the hood. "Oh because you're with your second baby daddy, makes sense."

                The dude looked appalled so I said, "Ooops." Rage filled her eyes right before the dude said, "You ain't tell me you got kids." She then turned to him with a pleading look in her eyes and told him that she could explain it. So I took my food and headed upstairs so I wouldn't be caught in her web of lies.

              Upstairs I watched Netflix as I ate my chicken and fries. Joey was about to propose to  Rachel and I couldn't help but remember when I was offered the same fate she was set up to. When Dashawn asked if I wanted to get away with him and he'd pay for everything and anything I wanted. Yes, I know you think I'm a traitor to my sister and just as dumb as her. But he helped relieved the pain I was in and helped take me away from this world. Not through drug or alcohol influence but through his words. I see why Delilah loved him. 

        She never found out about us but my heart was broken when I realized he'd never leave her or the other girls he was cheating on with her for me. That I was just another one of his hoes. It made me want to kill myself, for being so dumb, for allowing my heart to make the decisions and not being practical. The shit I would have done for him is crazy but it's whatever now. With all the agony that I went through, I learned how to numb myself and never get fully attached to anyone. 

I heard the door slam shut and I held my breath praying that I was left alone and wouldn't have to deal with Delilah yelling at me. Then when I heard no one I paused my Friends and blasted my beautiful husband, Daniel Caesar. I sand along to Best Part as I laid in my bed. 

I didn't even hear him come into my room.

I didnt feel his presence until he was on top of me. 

Fear crept into me as he held my hands and said that he would really love to make love to me.

I whimpered as he gave me pleasant slow kisses on my neck because this was only going to end in one way. 

I just kept my eyes shut because there was no point of screaming. My cries would have been drown out by the that my neighbors could probably hear.